Eating Disorders Support Group

Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.

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xBlissx 03/29/2008

Tonight I've realised just how distorted my views on food is.
After having weetabix with a measured amount of milk (just enough to wet the biscuit but not leak any into the bowl) for my breakfast every morning. I know exactly how many calories my breakfast will be.

My Mum suggested that I look for some other cereals that I could measure out to be equal to my weetabix. I've found a suprising amount of different cereals some of them you would not think to class as low calorie such has Nestle Honey Nut Cheerios.
I started to write a list of these cereals and I found that I was cringing at the thought of actually eating these, despite knowing that my serving would contain the same calorie content. It felt like I was writing a list of sweets and chocolate bars down!

Is my head really that screwed up!? It just upsets me to think I might never be comfortable eating foods 'with taste'.

x-Bliss-x

KayBeth 03/29/2008

I'm the same things can be the same amount of calories but some feel ok and others make me feel really bad. I have limited my food choices so much and would quite happily eat the same things each day.

deleted_user 03/29/2008

I hear you. I find it REALLY difficult to let go and to change something that I eat. Like no matter what I always have the same thing to eat some minutes after I wake up, whether it's at 3 am or 7 pm. Just the other day we were out of egg whites and so I had something else for breakfast. And I guess because I'm just so used to eating that something else later in the day, I felt my body get angry with me, and it was a very confusing feel-bad moment.

Maybe.... if you take it slowly. Exchange one piece of the cereal at a time at least until you become more comfortable with the idea of having a new cereal to eat every morning.

deleted_user 03/29/2008

Hi there, yes, sadly to answer your question it is in your head. I have limited my whole food scope to salad and derivatives thereof and I don't touch white food as it means carbs and I see carbs as the enemy. I also don't eat any fruit and limit veg to carrots, green beans and a bit broccoli. I tell you having done that for years it is a real struggle to try put something else in my mouth but it's ED talking in my head and I know to get well I need to try other things. I can stomach rice now but not potato which is actually lower Kj as rice but it feels bad. Saying that, I should really try potato shouldn't I? Anyway the more you limit the harder the struggle, it's just letting go of that rigid thing that keeps you there, it just needs a bit of tweaking. If you start trying other stuff you'll see what affects you badly and not so badly and you could easily enjoy more in a short period of time.
good luck
*hug*

xBlissx 03/30/2008

I challanged my distorted thoughts today...

I've actually had something different for breakfast.
I had a measured amount of Sugar puffs with a measured amount of milk - which in total it actually works out less calories than the weetabix.
I feel....OK about it at the moment but it kind of feels....unsafe?

I've been steered away from my normal food. I just keep telling myself that it's actually less calories and change is OK. Nothing bad is going to happen.

x-Bliss-x

deleted_user 03/30/2008

I'm the same way. I eat pretty much the same stuff every day, just because it feels safe. In IP I had to leave this comfort zone for the first time not even knowing how many cals I was taking in. But believe it or not it was kind of a relief because I had no power over anything. They took away all my control. The first few day I cried after every meal but with time me and some of the other girls would even challenge ourselves: If you eat pizza for lunch, I'll have the donut for breakfast. By the time I got that far it was time to go home and I relapsed real quick but I will never forget how proud I was of that accomplishment. And I want you to at least give it a try. I know you can do it.

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