I have been burrying these feelings of this disorder as much as I can. But it came to a point where it's affecting me relationships. I can several fights with my sister just bec. I am so done fixing myself that I don't have any nerve to listen to others. I've been too busy trying to love myslef that I end up not loving nor myself neither othes.I just had a huge argument with mu friend bec I am "mad at times without any apparent reason and that I put it all off on her by treating her bad bec of nothing" as she said. I found a document titled "wrong" in my computer that has been there for several months. In this document, I spoke everything out, every wrong in me, every hatered towards myself. why am I like that? I am scared to tell people. I don't want to tell people, but it is making me look like a bad person without any reason. I can't hide it but I can't speak it out. Should i speak it out? I am tired.