Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.
I am really in a bad place right now. I am diagnosed since I was a teen...I'm early 40s now. I'd been healthy and "recovered" for years (like 15+) and then last year, I had a short relapse. Binge/purge. I went back to my psych, got some treatment and within 6 months, I was back on the road to recovery.
Fast forward to now. My partner (of 10 years) and I moved to a new city. I work from home and have been having trouble making friends. She was not. She made friends and has a job that is very social. Anyway, I found out she was cheating on me with a couple. I had suspected but she gaslighted me hard. I thought I was going crazy. She didn't even confess until well after the fact that she built a relationship with these other people. She told them she loved them. Point is...I am spiraling. I cannot find my self-worth and I am unable to not think about food all the time and calories and exercise (things I can control). I'm exercising up to 3 hours a day, restricting foods, and obsessing about my appearance. I haven't binged/purged (my go to), but I fight myself everyday not to. I have no support system here (new city), no family, no friends, no medical team like back home, and even if I could find a community run group to drop in, I'm stuck with a stay at home order. I am really struggling. Help. Me. Please.
I am really sorry to hear of these super painful and difficult circumstances you find yourself in. I want to say bravo for resisting the urge to binge and purge. (This is what I struggle with... for 15+ years. Im so tired of it...) That is a major accomplishment and something to be proud of. Also, I think it's great that you came on here and asked for support in your time of need. This too, I feel is something to acknowledge yourself for. I am also very familiar with the feeling of not being able to find my self-worth -- so I think it is even more important to acknowledge the ways that we are doing well for ourselves. You are in a very hard situation, during a very anxious time, and you are doing the best you can. Every single moment that you keep on keeping on is a moment worth celebrating. I pray for you that you receive the shift in energy you need to make it through this time with a little less suffering, and a little more joy. Everything is an opportunity to learn how to love ourselves harder and deeper. Good job. Keep going. <3
Obsessing about appearance has got to be one of the worst things in the world.
I say this because I haven't been ,too self conscious lately and it feels great!
My fingers are crossed. Wishing u the best WW