I just feeling really depressed today. I think the Bipolar may be playing a part too. I broke down in tears yesterday and again today. Everything is just really getting to me. All I can think of is how I want to go back to the way things were. It feels like it's my fault I'm like this. That if I'd have kept quiet I'd still be living a normal life.
When I think back...I was so happy. I'd finished school with high grades, I went straight into the job I've always wanted to do, veterinary nursing. I'd been there a year and passed my first year exams. I loved it. I felt useful and I felt proud. I had friends there. We were all really close, went out together after work etc...and even if I'm able to go back a couple of mornings a week like I started doing, it won't be the same. They'll treat me differently even if they don't mean to. I actually had a social life and had just started going out with them more often (I'm quite a shy person).
Nothing is EVER going to be the same and I just wish I could be the person I was before and it hurts so much.

x-Bliss-x