Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.
for a long time i posted on here and made many friends, mostof whom have been able to move on. i still journal almost daily but i am not finding it enough for me right now. i did finally reach what my doctor said was my ideal weight, i was happy with what i was eating and felt good. however, as soon as she said that i flipped out, thinking that if i keep eating what i ate to gain to a healthy weight that i will keep gaining and get to were i as before i became anorxic. so irrational, but back came restriction and when i went back to the doctor i had lost all plus more and it isnt a good situation. i was supposed to add 500 calories more each day and i am not being to succesful and when i have a few days i do well, i look n the mirror and see a fat full face and back i go. thus has been going on for 2 months now and i cant seem to stop ED on my own. There are days i feel sick and weak, yet still dnt do what i should. i need help and advice. there are no support groups here and i cant afford therapy. anyone have suggestions?
Secondly, surely you dont mean always adding 500kcals more everyday? Cause that number would sky rocket soon, you mean 500 extra cals and then stick with the new total for a while?
As far as reverting back. There will be initial weight gain. It wont consistently go up, so long as you're not in a calorie surplus, which i'm sure you wont be, but initially, adding 500 extra calories, there will be some water weight. It takes time for your body to adjust. I'd say stick with the new total for 3 weeks (not a long time in a scale of things) and i would expect to see your fat distribution start to work better, and the water weight to be gone, and you would look much better. Just have to get over the inital jump.
Would you be willing to give that a try?
Have you tried online support groups like OA or EDA? I know they have online meetings and phone meetings. Sometimes they help.
I relate to struggling while those around are moving on. I see that happening in my own surroundings - I'm very happy for those, but at the same time there is a twinge of what am I not getting?
If you want to talk, I'm here, struggling, but still here, trying and willing to listen.