Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.
I dont know that I have an ED. or how to even classify my issue. I suppose I am looking for outside opinions and guidance and welcome them all. I need to be completely honest with myself, but I had a thought yesterday that scared me a little bit.
I lost about 55 lbs over the past few years. I am healthier than I have ever been..or so I thought. My metabolism is crap... Im highly resistant and need to watch everything I eat or can gain weight very quickly.
I went off my strict diet for a few weeks and was feeling "puffy" I ended up taking a few water pills. I took what was recommended and didnt exceed..but I ended up passing out while i was at work, resulting in hitting my head pretty hard on the concrete floor. I had a severe concussion and when the docs ran tests, the only thing that came back was that I was severely dehydrated.
I got a lecture there about diet and decided to say screw watching what I eat. This made me feel horrible about myself for a week or so after.
So what have I been doing? I eat and then purge. Not all of the time..but some of the times. Is this full blown ED or just a slippery slope?
The disturbing part about yesterday was that while I was doing it..I thought..wow... if my bf could see me now he would probably be really disappointed. Ugh... thats the other part..Im putting pressure on myself because I want to lose another 10 lbs before he comes home from overseas.
Am i more messed up that I think I am? Im lost. Thank you for listening...
I lost about 55 lbs over the past few years. I am healthier than I have ever been..or so I thought. My metabolism is crap... Im highly resistant and need to watch everything I eat or can gain weight very quickly.
I went off my strict diet for a few weeks and was feeling "puffy" I ended up taking a few water pills. I took what was recommended and didnt exceed..but I ended up passing out while i was at work, resulting in hitting my head pretty hard on the concrete floor. I had a severe concussion and when the docs ran tests, the only thing that came back was that I was severely dehydrated.
I got a lecture there about diet and decided to say screw watching what I eat. This made me feel horrible about myself for a week or so after.
So what have I been doing? I eat and then purge. Not all of the time..but some of the times. Is this full blown ED or just a slippery slope?
The disturbing part about yesterday was that while I was doing it..I thought..wow... if my bf could see me now he would probably be really disappointed. Ugh... thats the other part..Im putting pressure on myself because I want to lose another 10 lbs before he comes home from overseas.
Am i more messed up that I think I am? Im lost. Thank you for listening...
It could be the start of a slippery slope. I admit for me it started out with strict dieting, then abstaining from food, then the hunger won and I ate, felt guilty and purged. That was the beginning. However, recognizing the behavior gives the opportunity to change it.
I was very concerned as to what my family and friends would say about my behavior. I asked my brother out right if he was disappointed in me for what I'd been doing. He said he wasn't, but was concerned. I've gotten concern from friends and family but no indication of disappointment. He may end feeling the same, concerned but not disappointed.