Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.
I am not so sure I want to live anymore, I am so sick of all this. I relapsed on my eating disorder about a month ago and I don't know how to tell my parents. I don't want to let them down, but all I keep thinking is how HUGE I am. I really don't want to live. I keep remembering all these times when I was just so horrible to people I am supposed to care about. I don't know if I can live with myself anymore. I really hate myself. Now as well, my little sister tried to cut herself. I think it was my fault, I mean I could have exposed her to it. What if she starts to get and Eating disorder too?? I don't think I could live with that. I just feel I need to get Myself out of their lives before I ruin them more.
You feel it is your fault for your little sister cutting herself and that must be hard to deal with.
If you feel responsible for her actions do you hold someone responsible for yours? Or do you feel you can't blame others?
You postin this demonstrates to me a massive degree of awareness of others and their feelings. A horrid person doesnt desplay this empathy.
It is very frustrating dealing with ed, it gets you down and is a constant battle but i want to be here to give you the strength to fight
all those negitive thoughts are your ED screaming at you. don't let it win. you're better than that. you deserve to live and ebjoy life. pray. call NEDA. get to a counsoler. go to treatment. do whatever it takes to get better.