First of all congratulations on your success thus far. You should be very proud of yourself for that. The loss of your job is an obvious trigger for you. You are equating the loss with feeling worthless, but of course, these are thoughts that come directly from the same place where your ED lives. They are irrational thoughts and what you have to do for yourself is bring in compassion for yourself for facing a difficult situation. The loss of a job is just one of many life's challenges that we all face at one time or another. I myself have lost quite a few jobs over the years, but what I learned is that this was really part of my own destiny because when one door closed, another one opened to a much better opportunity. If you can turn your thoughts around and see this loss as a possibility for better things to come your way in the future, then you won't sink into that feeling that you are less than valuable. Remember that the ED is never about food or even about how you feel about your body, it is about what you can control when everything else around you seems out of your control. However, there are many things that are within your control that can lead to much more wonderful things down the road as evidenced by your success with recovery and your relationship. One thing that really helps me is to find at at least five things each day to be grateful for and even in the face of great challenges, I manage to find at least five things and somehow that changes my energy. Blessings!