Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.
Hi,
I'm new to ds and hoping for support. I've had anorexia for about 3 years and am battling to recover. It has been extremely difficult because I have a long list of other medical problems (which were not caused by the eating disorder, they existed first actually). It's very hard for me to open up to anyone because I have extreme trust issues. But lately I've been feeling sort of lost. I know that I want recovery and I want MY life back. But when I looked at myself I feel like I have no personality or characteristics that are me! All that defines me are my medical problems, and my eating disorder. When someone asks me how I am, they're not wondering how I actually am doing, they're inquiring about the state of my health. I've dealt with these problems for so long i feel like I forgot to develop into my own person. Either that or the old me has been completely masked by all of the problems I've dealt with. Anyway, it was just really getting me down because I'm filling out college applications right now and there were a lot of questions about "tell us about yourself" "what are you like" etc... and I didn't know what to say because I feel like everything has been branded by the problems in my life, and I'm not sure how to change that. I don't want to let ed take anymore away from me, but it seems that whenever I become even a little bit vulnerable he's right there waiting....
I'm new to ds and hoping for support. I've had anorexia for about 3 years and am battling to recover. It has been extremely difficult because I have a long list of other medical problems (which were not caused by the eating disorder, they existed first actually). It's very hard for me to open up to anyone because I have extreme trust issues. But lately I've been feeling sort of lost. I know that I want recovery and I want MY life back. But when I looked at myself I feel like I have no personality or characteristics that are me! All that defines me are my medical problems, and my eating disorder. When someone asks me how I am, they're not wondering how I actually am doing, they're inquiring about the state of my health. I've dealt with these problems for so long i feel like I forgot to develop into my own person. Either that or the old me has been completely masked by all of the problems I've dealt with. Anyway, it was just really getting me down because I'm filling out college applications right now and there were a lot of questions about "tell us about yourself" "what are you like" etc... and I didn't know what to say because I feel like everything has been branded by the problems in my life, and I'm not sure how to change that. I don't want to let ed take anymore away from me, but it seems that whenever I become even a little bit vulnerable he's right there waiting....
It sounds like you have had a very hard time and deal with a lot of illness, this must be very difficult.
It also sounds like you are struggling to find your personality and this is causing you a lot of pain.
Please feel free to be very open here, no-one is here to judge and we understand a lot of what you may be going through.
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What have you done to try and get better? Im curious. They do say the eating disorder becomes our identity, sucks... but you can get well and have a life !
We are here for you and I hope you are ready...