Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.
Hello all:-)
Before I get going I want to apologize for my first post being a rant.
Soooo....I am fat. I have always struggled with food issues. I was sexually abused as a child and after the abuse started I began eating like crazy. Through my young adulthood I varied from being anorexic to bulimic to bingeing with no purging.
Now I am assuming that like me most of the members of this group know the carb, calorie and fat count of most foods without looking. I would hazard a guess that most of us are very well versed in the food pyramid and ""my plate". Basically we all know what we *should* be eating.
Personally I feel like the darn food controls me. I am so frustrated. I use food like some people use alcohol.
So when I see someone post that they are struggling with binging or over eating and the first response is something along the lines of "Try eating a carrot" I want to jump thru the monitor. I mean really? Perhaps you have not noticed the satisfaction difference between...oh lets say a brownie and an apple slice.
I am pretty sure anorexics get tired of being told to eat a sammich.
For me the problem begins with my head and heart not my knowledge of nutrition.
Ok...I'm done now. Sorry.
Before I get going I want to apologize for my first post being a rant.
Soooo....I am fat. I have always struggled with food issues. I was sexually abused as a child and after the abuse started I began eating like crazy. Through my young adulthood I varied from being anorexic to bulimic to bingeing with no purging.
Now I am assuming that like me most of the members of this group know the carb, calorie and fat count of most foods without looking. I would hazard a guess that most of us are very well versed in the food pyramid and ""my plate". Basically we all know what we *should* be eating.
Personally I feel like the darn food controls me. I am so frustrated. I use food like some people use alcohol.
So when I see someone post that they are struggling with binging or over eating and the first response is something along the lines of "Try eating a carrot" I want to jump thru the monitor. I mean really? Perhaps you have not noticed the satisfaction difference between...oh lets say a brownie and an apple slice.
I am pretty sure anorexics get tired of being told to eat a sammich.
For me the problem begins with my head and heart not my knowledge of nutrition.
Ok...I'm done now. Sorry.
I'm not in your shoes as to why you're going through this, even though i've went through the same problems with food myself. I'm not a therapist in any way, and i actually know nothing of people's minds and attitudes towards food expect my own, but it seems to me that for what happened in your past, you punished yourself. Not with alcohol or drugs, but with food. You already know this im sure, but what you maybe dont know, is how to forgive yourself and let yourself see food for what it is, instead of what you've been using it as, a shield, and your punishment.
I dont know how you would do that. When i realized what i had been doing, i was able to in time let it go, then overcome the basic craving and impulses i had developed. Maybe you should speak to someone about your past, how its changed the way you treat food, and what steps you take to changing your view on food, and getting it from an answer to problems, back to simply fuel for your body.
Theres no point in understanding nutrition if your mind is blocking out some of the most simple answers.
I hope this helped a bit, and welcome x
I have worked with therapists in the past for different issues and I have just begun to work with one again. I have told him that it is something I need and want to work on because it is a matter of health and being able to enjoy life. Old copings skills need to be changed I guess.