My eating disorders kick up when I have memories of my sexual abuse - especially with my dad. Like a couple of days ago I had a memory of my dad on top of me. So I stopped eating. Then yesterday. The still-picture became movement - sex. He was having intercourse with me. I saw this in a dissociative state. I was sitting beside us. Does anyone else dissociate? Or has anyone else dissociated during the abuse and then remember the abuse later as if you were standing by. I know I have parts. Lea is the one with the eating disorder (although it affects the whole person/body). She is the strong willed/angry part of me. My therapist and I are working on giving all parts of me a voice. That is hard as hell. Does anyone else deal with this?
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