Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.
I was overwhelmed yesterday while stocking the candy section at work yesterday, all I could smell was the chocolate and the urge to open a bag and pour it in like the older days was big. I had to walk away.i am still struggling to gain back the stupid 10 pounds I had lost and I go soon to the secailist and she wont be happy. I am not seeming to add enough more calories, and then that happened. I proceeded to over eat, in my eyes, at lunch and definitely at dinner. I had a ton of hummus, was full but took out my big protein bar and a bowl of nuts and ate it and felt disgusting the whole time. I am now forcing breakfast in, so hard. I hate this ED and all the forms it takes, and my stress level is through the roof right now and I always have over eaten when that way and that is one of my huge fears, that iswhy the candy smell and need to eat it was so scary. I am unable to get to any OA meetings, and they were just beginning to kinda help, still unsure about it and I have some numbers to call but I haven't reached out. I feelso stupid and dumb.
red47640
hey ann, I feel your pain, it is so hard to rebound from a binge without feeling guilt and self-disgust... one thing I that I have read (and am trying to apply to my own ED issues) is that self-compassion and problem-solving are more effective than berating oneself after a binge. Sounds like you identified what triggered you, now I guess just accept that while you aren't happy with what you did, it happened and everyone does things they regret, then move on. Tough to do, I know! You are definitely not stupid or dumb, and it s too bad that you can't attend the OA meetings right now, hopefully you will e able to find the help you need elsewhere. All the best and I am thinking of you :-)
ann54
I didn't succumb to the candy and my "overeating" was likely in my mind. thank you so much for your support. today will be a challenge as I am sitting ll day at a training and I will feel the need to not eat much as I am not doing anything. sigh
AnnaB12
I hope the training went okay, and I hope you are feeling better about things. Hugs!
CeeCee4
If the OA meetings are helping then try to make them! I get the feeling and can totally relate. Maybe if you made meal plans and stuck to them.for a bit it will help you feel good, have control, know your meeting your nutrients requirements, and you will help reduce the urge to binge? I know when I have my meals planned out for the day I feel more comfortable and have less anxiety about food
ann54
thanks, i am supposed to be seeing a nutrinist or at least have tried one, i haven't, i tried before and it doesn't work for me, i cant seem to get out of the rut of eating the same darn things and i think i am adding more but since the scale says no i guess not enough. there are only 2 OA meetings near me and one was sunday and i was in training, i did reach out Saturday and called a fellow member. i can go on Tuesday, i wish there were more meetings here. i am at a loss right now, they mesed up and didn't schedule me for today as my last training day and i cant get fit in till Friday! i could of started work this week, so pissed. the desire to restrict is so big right now with all the stress, the unknown, my parents i cant stand it
danita107
Ann I am right there with you. I'm in anorexic mode and ED is just sneaking there and taking over. I'm constantly thinking of how to avoid eating and how much weight I will lose. I have also had the binge thoughts. You are not alone and you have the fight in you. All we can do is keep going and trying each day. I just wanted to know that I know how you feel and we have each other!
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