Eating Disorders Support Group

Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.

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Catlovers141 09/03/2008

I used to have an EDNOS that was closest to anorexia, but today I just binged. And I do mean "binge" by healthy standards, not anorexic standards. My stomach was so full and I tried to throw up, but I can't. For some reason, no matter what I do I can't throw up. Don't know why. Anyway, after trying that for a while I gave up and started cutting my stomach.

My life is so perfect. I have everything. I don't understand why I am like this. I have nothing wrong with my life and I feel so sorry that I am part of this group when everyone else here has real reasons for their behavior.

I'm sorry, I just had to throw that out there. I think I need some support. I may have just lost my best friend because of my cutting. But I don't know. I may just be paranoid.

Thanks for reading, and I am looking forward to getting comments. I do read all of them and will reply to them if you'd like.

deleted_user 09/03/2008

I know what you mean! I am the same way, my life has everything I could need, but I have these problems. I don't really have any advice- but just wanted to say I understand what you are going through.

deleted_user 09/03/2008

I hate to say this and I hope it doesn't get me in trouble but...obviously you are missing something in your life...do you have control over your life? Is there something emotionally you aren't getting...I mean you may have all the things that you need in that you have loved one, family, a home etc..but if you can find whats missing and REALLY consider it all you can find why you do what you do....hugs.

Catlovers141 09/03/2008

Thanks for your replies. =]

ChefJess, I was actually thinking about that too. But the trouble is, what? I don't have too many close friends because I am really shy. It isn't that people make fun of me or are mean to me or anything, it's just that no one is close to me. Ever since I was really little, I have always wanted that. But I don't know if it is really enough to cause all of this. Maybe it is a part of it?

deleted_user 09/03/2008

I know for me and for a lot for ED suffers the need to excepted, approved of and to be "just right" drives a lot of it....I have always felt that I wasn't good enough and just want to feel people approval...I feed people b.c it's how I can show love and how I get people to tell me they think I am good at something...I know what drives my issues but..it's just a beginning. I don't know if me rambling about me helps you but....I'm here if you want to talk.

deleted_user 09/03/2008

Your life is obviously not perfect and somewhere deep down there is a reason for your destructive behavior. It just is too hurtful and scary to come out, so you punish your body. I hope you can see a therapist and get the help you need.

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