Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.
Having an eating disorder has taken away my quality of living. I'm so scared that ED will end up killing me... The people in my life think i am relapsing, when in fact I was never eating normally for that stretch of time.. I was just B/P more...
Im fine as long as im around people, and around my friends. But when i'm home, in my room i have these very strong feelings of wanting to commit suicide. i do not have a plan, but what should i do about how i feel? I wouldn't be asking, if these feelings of suicide weren't strong. i know suicide if 'a permanent solution to a temporary problem' but i think about it every single day. Everyday these feelings get stronger and stronger.
Anyones input would be nice to have. im scared
Im fine as long as im around people, and around my friends. But when i'm home, in my room i have these very strong feelings of wanting to commit suicide. i do not have a plan, but what should i do about how i feel? I wouldn't be asking, if these feelings of suicide weren't strong. i know suicide if 'a permanent solution to a temporary problem' but i think about it every single day. Everyday these feelings get stronger and stronger.
Anyones input would be nice to have. im scared
Honestly, watching ED strip away all the best parts of my life, the relationships, sports, girls, who I am at work, my focus on education, the focused and carefree sides of me, and leaving me a fraction of all of that, left me suicidal some nights. But for 1, I can't do that to my family who believed in me, and still do, I couldn't scar my little sis like that. If would tear away at her, and only show her how to give up.
And secondly, its not the end. It was bad, and low, and not the finest years of my life, but not the end either. Fight till the end, and be willing to be hurt and crawl, cry, break, but make it another day.
At some point red, you'll look back on this and be grateful you went one more day when you thought you couldn't. Fight till the end x
Now, although it has taken awhile to figure out, I know what I have to do to stay out of that situation again - so I now go to school full time, and work 30 hours a week, and moved in with my fiance and dog. It can be exhausting, but I still have relaxing days, as those are also equally as important.
As long as I keep myself busy, I'm usually ok. Of course ED is "scratching away at me" (a great description by jonroland) here and there, but keeping up with therapy, surrounding myself with family and loved ones, and keeping myself busy gives me more meaning to life, and a better way to handle it.
Of course, everyone deals with these feelings differently, but take the time to find out what works for you. Go to group sessions at a treatment center and/or meet with your therapist regularly, surround yourself with those you love and trust, and find what really works for you, individually. You will eventually work through it... Believe that you can make it through :)