How about we try a different approach, because you surely aren't going to get any pointers on how to make yourself yack . (sorry, but it's the truth) Do you know WHY you are hungry all of the time? Have you spoken to a doctor abou this? There could be numerous and different reasons for you being hungry all of the time. What do you mean "I am not trying to starve myself?" Sorry, I don't know your situation, so just trying to figure it out.

I'm sorry if I sounded like I was trying to get pointers. That is definitely NOT why I posted.I was just expressing the ED thoughts that I can't get out of my head. I guess what I meant by not trying to starve myself is that when I was actively anorexic I limited my calories to 700. I'm not trying to do anything near that now. I just want to eat the right amount for my body and activity level.

I haven't talked to a doctor about my hunger. I guess it is really hard for me to tell the difference between physical and emotional hunger. I have been really stressed lately. Does that actually work to burn more calories thus making me hungry or am I just eating to take my mind off of the stress?

I just wish it wasn't so hard to be healthy...physically and emotionally

Sometimes we gotta figure these things out, I didn't mean to be "rude", you'd be surpised some of the things people actually do ask on here. Anyhow. First of all, you shouldn't be afraid to ask your doctor this, that is unless your doctor is unaware of your past. But moving along here.Stress causes a lot of different actions, over eating, under eating, lack of sleep. I don't think you can possibly "forget" to eat. However, does stress eat up calories? I haven't a clue. I would suggest just trying to sort through the thoughts. It's recommended to keep a food journal. Keep track of what you are doing, how you are feeling, what you ate, how it made you feel, etc. At least that's one thing my therapist asked me to do. It may be worth giving it a whirl and see if that helps at all, I am not all that sure though.

the two most dangerous words you mentioned are "self" and "control" I know I'm not popular for my 12-step approach for recovery but I highly recommend it. If you have to control something, it's out of control. So what can you do? You can go on trying to control it, or you can surrender. Surrender is not losing. It's going over to the winning side. PM me if you need help. I'm here for you.

I'm in the same boat as you. I was just eating just raw veggies, fruit, salads and healthy frozen foods. Now, I'm trying to eat more foods to gain weight but I end up either binging on junk I never let myself eat or binging on whatever I can find to eat. I tell myself I'm going to have control but then as soon as I start it's like all those thoughts disappear. It is pretty scaring thinking this disease has such a strong hold on what we really need to do to take care of ourselves huh? Sometimes I get jealous and wish I could feel hungry because it's hard to even know the feeling. I'm trying to find the balance too but it def. is not easy. Something I'm trying now is to work on being an Intuitive and intentional eater. Think of what you want and the portion to eat before you go in the kitchen. Write it down and then eat. If you're still hungry, write what you want and wait 10minutes. Then, eat it if you still crave this. I also posted goals/rewards (eat meal and not binge) and self-motivation quotes inside my kitchen shelf to keep me 'in the moment' of eating and not lose myself like we all do. Hope that helps!

Ok. I am just going to apologize before hand, I am cranky today. My suggestion and if peanutzz remembers me, blues isn't too popular over on the alchy board, however, that's neither here nor there, she's right, I would pm here and talk to her. Let her explain what it means to "surrender" and what it means to "work the steps" (I personally do not believe in that stuff.... well surrender, but I never made it to the steps HOWEVER MANY, MANY PEOPLE have and have been EXTREMELY SUCCESSFUL!!!!! ~ I am just the nut in the basket) I have all the faith in the world she'll be able to explain these things to you. It works, you just have to be open to it! So try that. And for the life of me, someone posted it on here a while back and I just suggested it to someone very dear to me that is a binge eater, the 4 D's, drink plenty of water, delay, distract and deep breathing. You are starting in a good directioon, noticing you don't want to get caught up in "it" again. Heed the advice you are given and exhaust all your resources. Best of luck.