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idk wats wrong with me..like idk why i cant stop and why the scale is the most important thing to me ....
i skipped eating yesturday and was gonna skip today but my chest hurts alot today and so i had this chicken sausage with chesse on bread :((( then i felt so bad that i tried to purge...i never binge so i dont b/p..i havent purged since April. i hate throwing up soo much but i just felt so bad today but when i tried i did a little but i couldnt. so i stopped trying.
but i started doing sit ups and i just feeel very very bad ...like i cant take it...i did gain 5lbs back and i feel like complete shiit....i cant do this anymore.
ive been having the worst luck ever last week and this week and idk why...im near my whits end ...idk what to do.
i was debating on whether i still am going to go to Renfrew in May .....i was telling myself that when im thin ill be able to have what i want but if i go to Renfrew i wont get to be thin and ill just become bigger but..right now i wish i was going tomoro, honestly. :((
could someone help me please?
i skipped eating yesturday and was gonna skip today but my chest hurts alot today and so i had this chicken sausage with chesse on bread :((( then i felt so bad that i tried to purge...i never binge so i dont b/p..i havent purged since April. i hate throwing up soo much but i just felt so bad today but when i tried i did a little but i couldnt. so i stopped trying.
but i started doing sit ups and i just feeel very very bad ...like i cant take it...i did gain 5lbs back and i feel like complete shiit....i cant do this anymore.
ive been having the worst luck ever last week and this week and idk why...im near my whits end ...idk what to do.
i was debating on whether i still am going to go to Renfrew in May .....i was telling myself that when im thin ill be able to have what i want but if i go to Renfrew i wont get to be thin and ill just become bigger but..right now i wish i was going tomoro, honestly. :((
could someone help me please?
Please stick with your plans to go to renfrew; I think it will help you find some perspective, better ways to cope with your feelings of sadness, fear, anger, and maybe even help you love yourself a bit.
Take a deep breath, let it out slowly, and then focus on this very moment...what are you feeling? Where is your mind trying to drag you off to?
i will go to renfrew...that is is if my mom stops pestering me..like she keeps saying since ur going im not gonna even bother to pay for u to go to a cruise with us. and stuff like that..or she says ur getting so skinny idk why u wanna be institutionalized (sp ?)
right now im feeling guilty...for everything. i feel confused like why are bad things happening to me this week. my mind hates me alot. im just thinking about the dissapointment of today when i stepped on the scale....like i cant do this anymore:(
(I'm not trying to be mean to your mom, just wondering if the two of you ever had a close, communicative relationship)
Besides, who says you can't go on a cruise later in the year with some friends?
We can be our own worst enemies, can't we? :/
What can you do right now that would help yourself feel better (a healthy something, young lady!...don't roll your eyes at me...I have that special mom-vision, ya know.....)
me and my mom only have close talks wen we talk about boys i make like or wen my dad was mistreating me...or about something she can brag about...ie my daughter wrote a book, did u hear wat her jerk father did, u know my daughter has a date tonight...we never talk about important things....like wen she asked wat i was gonna eat later today i said nothing im eating right now and she was like if u wanna lose ur teeth and stuff go ahead....or wen i tried to tell her about my sexuality confusion she yelled at me and threatened to abandon me...wen i was in therapy she talked to my therapist once and my therapist came back to me and was like ur mom doesnt get it at all...omg...and she didnt like my mom much.
yeah we can be our worse enemies. im reall mean to myself i know. ..
Hun just consider this week a bad week and decide that next week will be much better!!!
ill try to keep that in mind...cuz she really doesnt know wat shes talk about so...