Y0U HAVE TO EAT! The laxitives will only make you bloated and make you feel worse about being "fat". They also dehydrate you, so drink lots of water! Hey, I'm here if ya need to chat.

There is a misconception that not eating can't hurt you if you're overweight. Overweight folks can be malnourished, which carry with it SERIOUS illnesses, disease, consequences. Scurvy ain't fun, unless you really WANT your teeth to fall out your mouth.

Not eating and using laxatives could kill you. It messes up your electrolytes severely. You're losing water, but in that water you're losing potassium and sodium that your body NEEDS to activate muscles. Your heart is a muscle.

Get some Gatorade or some other sports drink, and get it quick.

thanks x x x

.....but i really cant and i cant explain why sorry

You know what, hun? Along with this post, I read your journal entry (the one you sent to your doctor) and I think you are suicidal. I feel so sad for you. Did you tell your doctor about your extensive & recent starvation/laxative diet? You probably didn't right? Otherwise, I think he/she would've clued in that this may be the way you're trying to do yourself in, and they wouldnt've let you go so quickly. You've got to be honest with the docs, Emma!

At the excessive rate you're going, you're not going to survive too long I'm sorry to say. The body can only take so much. I really hope that your body's natural survival mechanisms kick in and MAKE you eat & drink something....before next Wednesday's dr. appt! (I hope it won't be too late.)

FORCE yourself! You can do it!

You need to eat, sweetie. Just something small like a cracker maybe. It might stimulate your appetite.
And the laxatives will only dehydrate you and will end up in the ER. Plus once you stop taking them after you've been on them for a while you'll gain weight and probably hate yourself. Don't put yourself through all this. Please talk to someone. Is somebody with you?

You need to be careful with the laxatives, they can do some real damage especially if you are already dehydrated. The blurry moment and the headaches aren't a good sign of your not eating. Have you spoken to a family member about this? Or a close friend? Not eating will always hurt you, I'm sorry but thats the truth and as ironic as it is for me to say it, thats what it is. If you continue to not eat you can pass out at work or at other places. And laxatives aren't helping you. They are just going to make you feel bloated. Please take care of yourself I know you're in a tough bind,I wish you well.