I read your last post and stop all meds is not a good thing. As some of the others have said talk to your therapist and dorctors. It's hard, however in the long run recovery is can be good hard but good. It just takes baby steps.... things don't happen over night they happen in time. Two days of fasting then eating fish and chips your body probably needed the engery and calories. don't beat yourself up over look at as positeve. I am not sure if I make any since, be good to yourself.

You are ashamed because you gave in and ate??????? You ARE suppose to eat, everyday, 5 times a day, 7 days a week, 365 days a year....Do you want recovery?

You gave into the right thing to do and you should be proud of yourself. Eating is what keeps your body and soul alive. I hope you can keep up the good work and I'm glad you talked to your mom.

It's horrible how this disease carries so much shame and guilt along with it. Not just with the eating, but in life in general. But feeling guilt and being guilty are two different animals. You have nothing to feel guilty for. Society drums it into out brains that stuff like fish and chips are "guilty" foods, but that's a crock of shit. There are no bad foods unless you're eating ant killer, so please don't beat yourself up, which requires forgiveness for something you've done that was never wrong in the first place. I tried to restrict the other day, set my mind to it actually. Like I wasn't going to eat until I got my way. Sort of like those kids in Berkeley that sit up in a tree until their demands are meant, crazy! Then my husband out of the blue came home with sandwiches and I'm like "OK out of my tree I come" but it wasn't a lapse in willpower, just the realization that what I was doing was wrong. So yeah I "broke down" too, but it was a sandwich. We need food, no matter what our eating disorder tells us. Good luck. xo

You definitely need to eat. But perhaps fish and chips - deep fried and batter was not the best choice.

You need to find a good nutrition guide. You should be eating 7 fruits and veggies a day. These will NOT make you fat. You also need calcium, and protein, and lots of fiber. I'm not condemning you in any way that you ate, but if you eat well, you won't gain weight. Since I came here for support, acknowledged the ED, I have gone back to eating correctly. Like in my 20's when I had no ED, and was thin and healthy. Next time, think about some good things you could eat - like carrots and bananas and apples and oranges. Then think milk or soymilk. Lite tofu is a great source of protein, and low calorie.

You need to re-educate your mind about eating in a way, that won't make you fat, but will meet the required nutrients, every day.