First of all be PROUD of yourself that you took the first step of admitting that there may be a problem and coming here for support and advice. There are so many people that can relate to what you are feeling and going through.

My suggestion would be to continue coming here for fellowship and support - it really helps to know you aren't alone in these situations. Also think about trying to get in to see a counsellor, particularly one that specializes in (or even has knowledge of ) eating disorders. Therapy has helped me tremendously!!!!! Not sure what resources you have available to you locally but it wouldn't hurt at this point to at least do some research.

WELCOME and please........know that you are not alone!
Jen

Hi Shelby, I'm so glad you posted! I have been binge eating since I was 10 years old and I'm 38 now. I've been a bulimic for about 10 years and I have been back and forth from binging and purging to anaroexia (sp?). You aren't alone. I agree with Jen to seek counseling and talk post on here as much as possible. We are all here to support each other. Even if you just need to vent, it helps. There's no one who knows exactly how you are feeling than a fellow binge eater or anyone who has the disorder. It IS possible to beat this. I have faith.

I had same problem in young age untill I understood that skiny is not beautiful. Healthy is beautiful. It is imasing how perception changes. Now I look at photos of women in magazines like models who previously seemed to me beautiful and I see a lot of issues with them like narrow shouoders, ribs showing up and in general not good look. Programming from TV makes young people to feel like skiny is beautiful. That is not so. Healthy is beautiful. Many girls that were on extrim diets in young age developed skin problem and wrinkles on face by the age of 28. They lost teeth and have condition of elderly women in early age while women of normal weight or even obese still have young face in after 30 and people might even think they are much younger. If person is obese person can choose overtime whether get a little less weight or not. If person is too skiny once they develop wrinkles and loose teeth that is irreversable process so it is better to eat normally. Plus only small percentage of men like skinny and those are in a lot of cases abusive men whom you do not want in your life. Men with better personality like woman to be healthy. If man only cares about womans look not about her health that is not good man to be with.

Hi Shelby,
I can definitely relate to everything you've shared. My ED behaviors started at 13 after a sexual assault. I am now almost 36 and I've had ups and downs, but currently in a really bad place because I allowed the ED to take over again. I am to the point I can't digest and experience severe pain if I try to eat, please don't let it get this bad. I might be hospitalized next week, and if so it will be my second time force-fed through a tube. Please seek help before your ED gets worse. I dropped out my senior year in college due to my first hospitalization. I was so stressed I coped by not eating, which led to complete exhaustion/heart issues and I had no choice but to drop out. My brain had shut down to the point nothing made sense and I couldn't walk up a flight of stairs without feeling I would die. Sorry if I'm scaring you. But you've come so far in college, I don't want you to feel the humiliation, shame and pain of having to quit due to your ED. I don't have the answers as to how to recover successfully, but I've tried it on my own, and so far it hasn't worked out well for me. I am happy you joined this group. Please keep posting, try to shut down the ED voice and eat to nourish your brain so you can complete your goals/dreams. Wishing you the very best!!! You're not alone, and there are people here in recovery, please reach out to them. Hugs!

so good you took the step inposting, you will get very good support and those that are recvoting, recovered to still fighting. I am 58 and have had one type of eating disorder for as long as I can remember, all started due to a very dysfunctional family with the focus on thinness and I wasn't as thin as my mother wanted. so secret eating began. eshaw made some excellent points, hard to hear but oh so true. you want to make it to graduation feeling healthy you have won this and deserve it. I highly recommend some type of counseling and group support, it is to hard on your own. keep posting and know we are here for you, hugss