I'm going through similar struggles with not being able to stop my cycle of bingeing and fasting. I don't even remember what normal eating feels like because I do it so rarely. And yes, it is really unhealthy. One thing I'm trying, besides reaching out to others, is to understand the mental/psychological reasons for why I binge, because fixing the core of this problem is likely one of the only ways I will be able to get better. I know that whatever symptoms we have, there's an emotional reason for doing it. I feel so out of control all of the time, especially with stress at college, so I'm trying to calm myself down more often. I'm trying to learn mindfulness, and--although you may not find this helpful--I'm reading a lot about Buddhism, Taoism, yoga, and meditation. I've just been reading online or buying really cool books that allow you to find yourself and understand your emotions; they're really good companions for when I feel completely stressed, sad, angry, bored, anytime you feel abandoned or need extra support. I've learned so much, and I do feel a bit calmer. After reading them, I have more things to think about and ask myself. I'm going to keep tyring, and I truly hope you find your way as well.

I have been struggling with the same thing lately too. It feels like the story of my life lately. This past year I started seeing a counselor and that has helped a lot. She had me read this book called Hope, Help and Healing (I think) by some person with the last name Jantz and it helped me figure out why I do this and learn more about myself. You should look into it. Also, if you ever need someone to talk to I am here for ya

Also in the same boat. I think sometimes the only thing that scares me enough to stop is the thought that I can die in my sleep. Also your heart is a muscle and when your mucsles starts deteriorating then you need to know your heart is as well. I know it's awful to hear it but ive mentioned that I am now on the shortlist to stop immediately coz the damage is on the brink of being terrible and life threatening. It will stop when I stop but as you said, it's really hard. I think I read about all the things that can happen and made a shortlist that I read or try to read every morning. It's sad that I can't remind myself automatically but it's part of the illness. *hug* just try to believe in yourself a bit, it will also help loads and other people does so no reason on earth why you aren't allowed or able to believe in yourself.

there are many eating disorder centres that can help you, you dont have to wait for your mom. I cant believe that she is not taking this more seriously, have you told her how desperately you need help.
What I would do is google the word eating disorder treatment and then your city name and see what comes up and call them to see what they can do to help.
If you want to get better, dont wait, only you know how bad your ED is. Take care of yourself, that is a very brave and tough thing to do.
There is so much info on lime, find someplace that is near you and you can take yourself there if necessary, but dont wait another day...your life at stake.