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Not feeling very positive at the moment.
I had another therapy session today but it didn't really go as well as I hoped. I don't know what he wants from me anymore! He was talking about me changing my thoughts. That I can't control the feelings, they'll change last, but I can change my thoughts.
........................................... HOW? ..........................................................
Ok. So I have a thought: "It's hopeless, my isn't worth living". His idea is that I need to change that and think about what the alternatives would be....
...so, fine "It's not hopeless, it's going to take while but it will get better"...
BUT... I can say that until I'm blue in the face! It doesn't mean I believe it! I can't see how thinking about alternative ways of thinking is going to help!!! When I explained that I don't believe the new thoughts when I try and think them...he said "I know you don't, I don't expect you to at the moment but you will with practise".
ARGH, what is it I am supposed to practise if it doesn't work!!! HELP, am I missing something here!?
I know he cares but it feels like he just didn't get it today. It was only meant to be a 1/2 hr appointment and I was in there for over an hour. Although I think that's because of my thinking at the time...it's possible he didn't want me to leave suicidal.
I don't know how this is going to work if I can't do what he's asking me to! :(
x-Bliss-x
I had another therapy session today but it didn't really go as well as I hoped. I don't know what he wants from me anymore! He was talking about me changing my thoughts. That I can't control the feelings, they'll change last, but I can change my thoughts.
........................................... HOW? ..........................................................
Ok. So I have a thought: "It's hopeless, my isn't worth living". His idea is that I need to change that and think about what the alternatives would be....
...so, fine "It's not hopeless, it's going to take while but it will get better"...
BUT... I can say that until I'm blue in the face! It doesn't mean I believe it! I can't see how thinking about alternative ways of thinking is going to help!!! When I explained that I don't believe the new thoughts when I try and think them...he said "I know you don't, I don't expect you to at the moment but you will with practise".
ARGH, what is it I am supposed to practise if it doesn't work!!! HELP, am I missing something here!?
I know he cares but it feels like he just didn't get it today. It was only meant to be a 1/2 hr appointment and I was in there for over an hour. Although I think that's because of my thinking at the time...it's possible he didn't want me to leave suicidal.
I don't know how this is going to work if I can't do what he's asking me to! :(
x-Bliss-x
I don;t know what to do either
Sorry x
The thought that automatically pops into my head now is "well if you do that you'll be lying to yourself to make you feel better"
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
x-Bliss-x
the negative has taken over and its all you know.... its why you dont believe the positive, but you can change...
lots of ppl have, so even if you dont believe it...every time you say it you inch closer to believing it.
dont give up !
Thank you for all your supportive comments. Sounds like I just need to keep going with it and hopefully I'll eventually "see the light" as they say.
x-Bliss-x