you should be proud of yourself for managing so well over the last few weeks. r u in treatment?
it isn't pointless, i know at times that it seems so hard and you almost feel as though there is no life without an ED. but recovery in a way helps to choose better coping mechanisms, so although in the future we may slip-up, it doesn't mean we are destined to live like this forever! x

3 weeks of following the meal plan, that is awesome. thinking of eating like this for 1 yr. and longer is to much to take in right now. you are recovering and it can seem overwhelming. try sticking to one day at a time, you can do it!

My therapist always tells me not to think in the long term, definitely not the rest of my life. It's too overwhelming and there is nothing in your life where you can plan ahead that far and know the outcome. Let's say you are perfect at playing the piano and you know you always will be. What happens to always if you get arthritis in your hands. See my point. Three weeks is fantastic. Now go for week number four and if something should happen you start again and tell yourself that there is always hope and that you can do it.

I'm not being treated because I don't let anyone know there's anything wrong, I want to fix the problem myself so no one ever has to know what I've done.

Thanks for the support, I guess even if I ate more than I wanted to yesterday, I stopped myself from gettin rid of it and I'm already making sure I don't fast. I'll just get back on track and try to take it one day at a time. :/

i would take it one day at a time.

i'm finally at a point where i'm comfortable doing a meal plan. ive been having a difficult time making time for my meals. i end up binge eating. then i feel like i cannot start a meal plan until i clean myself up. it just keeps happening over and over again.