Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.
Not being an angry or hateful person, this is a bit out of character for me. I've come to the point where I'm angry, well actually, I'm downright pissed at my ED. It's taken so much away from me... friends, relationships, time, grades, bonds with my family. EVERYTHING! I hate it. I really do. I don't normally hate, but the one thing I really HATE is this ED. I can't do it anymore. Something has got to change. That's why I'm working so hard this time, I just can't deal with ED anymore. It has to go! I want to be healthy. I want to have friends. I want to be able to like myself. I want to have kids and a family of my own someday. I want to feel HAPPY. IT needs to go, because I WANT IT GONE!
It's day four on my no purge plan, and I realize ... it's not enough. I've got to be eating too. So...I've set my phone to go off multiple times during the day to remind me to eat. I'm scared I might gain weight at first, but I know.. that once my metabolism adjusts to food again.. as long as I eat and exercise in a healthy manner, I will loose the excess weight. Right now.. I just need to get myself in a more healthy place. I want to get back some of the things I've lost. I want to move on in my life and be successful. I want this for ME!
It's day four on my no purge plan, and I realize ... it's not enough. I've got to be eating too. So...I've set my phone to go off multiple times during the day to remind me to eat. I'm scared I might gain weight at first, but I know.. that once my metabolism adjusts to food again.. as long as I eat and exercise in a healthy manner, I will loose the excess weight. Right now.. I just need to get myself in a more healthy place. I want to get back some of the things I've lost. I want to move on in my life and be successful. I want this for ME!
There is nothing wrong with hating ed. I hate him too and want him dead. How is that for being hateful. Like you said ed takes over our lives and ruins them. Let's not give him that power.
Hate is a very hard emotion to live with. I see what you mean.
Reminds me of the book "Life without ED" where she refers to ED as an ex-husband. Where you can experience freedom, yet don't have to live in hate. You can "divorce" yourself, yet still make peace with it. I always liked that analogy..