Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.
I need help!
Some of you may have read my post about the suicidal thoughts etc.
Last week, Tuesday night I was admitted overnight because I didn't feel safe to go home. The same thing happened this Wednesday. I didn't want to feel that way anymore so I did the only thing that I knew worked...I stopped eating.
Unfortunately, it works. I feel safe again. Now I'm scared to start eating properly again. Until this lunch time I hadn't had any solid food since Wednesday lunch time. Today I managed half my lunch portion at day patients but it's really hard. I've reached the point where I know if I have more today, I'll have had more than yesterday.
My therapist is so good but he's said he can't concentrate on anything other than my eating while i'm still starving myself. I struggled so much to try and sort out some of the thoughts I was having and I just couldn't do it anymore. I want to go back now and try again, try and fight it with my therapist again but I'm so scared of eating again.
Why did I miss that first meal!!!
x-Bliss-x
Some of you may have read my post about the suicidal thoughts etc.
Last week, Tuesday night I was admitted overnight because I didn't feel safe to go home. The same thing happened this Wednesday. I didn't want to feel that way anymore so I did the only thing that I knew worked...I stopped eating.
Unfortunately, it works. I feel safe again. Now I'm scared to start eating properly again. Until this lunch time I hadn't had any solid food since Wednesday lunch time. Today I managed half my lunch portion at day patients but it's really hard. I've reached the point where I know if I have more today, I'll have had more than yesterday.
My therapist is so good but he's said he can't concentrate on anything other than my eating while i'm still starving myself. I struggled so much to try and sort out some of the thoughts I was having and I just couldn't do it anymore. I want to go back now and try again, try and fight it with my therapist again but I'm so scared of eating again.
Why did I miss that first meal!!!
x-Bliss-x
...I'm not ill enough. My weight isn't low enough for them to take me in.
I want to be able to turn it round myself.
x-Bliss-x
I feel like I'll just have to wait until Monday, go to day patients again and get support from there.
x-Bliss-x