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Freaked Out

xBlissx
xBlissx
After my positive post yesterday I have some bad news.
Yesterday I had said I was going to try to increase my food intake a bit because I was feeling a bit stronger. But last night I completely freaked out and would have probably self-harmed if I wasn't with my Mum.
I can't believe I was so stupid, thinking I could do it without being in treatment.
I'm now back to just trying to maintain my weight as it is. Today I weighed myself and suprise suprise I've put on weight so I'm feeling pretty bad. Support would be greatly appreciated :(
I'm sorry I'm not posting a successful post.

x-Bliss-x
kmw
kmw
dont be sorry,is there anyway that u cud not weight ueself,or u dont look at ur weight if u do?
recovery is also being happy with how u feel within ur body,dont let a set of numbers make the decesion for you,
set targets where u dont look at ur weight for a day,then a few days,soon a week,try to increase the time within u weigh urself,
can u r mum help u?she sounds supportive?!?x
xBlissx
xBlissx
My Mum is great yeah.

I have though about having the bathroom scales taken away but I think that is more likely to trigger off me not wanting to eat at all again.

x-Bliss-x
deleted_user
deleted_user
It is ok- This ED thing is like a bad roller-coaster. A bunch of ups and downs, then when we do not expect it a quick jolt to the side. But then we are back on track again.
deleted_user
deleted_user
i understad am with you am just the same i hate this ed
am here if you need me babes i will try to help you
deleted_user
deleted_user
We all have setbacks when dealing with ED's. Just relax & do the best you can. Get rid of triggers - even scales! Anorexia is so complicated & sneaky, but it is the old evil one trying to destroy us.
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deleted_user
dont be sorry, i wrote in my journal, someting positive monday and went back and edited it like 2 hours later COMPLELELTY freaking out... I too have gained recently and it's so freakin hard, but we gotta remind ourselves, we derserve a life and def dont have one with this ED around...dont we want to eat and enjoy our wedding cakes, nice dinners out with friends? have an ice cream on a hot summer day.... no guilt... not B/P? of course we wish those things and ED keeps it away... stay with me and fight for life, though it completely sucks in the moment there has got to be better
xBlissx
xBlissx
Hi thanks for all you support :)

I hardly ate at all yesterday and I'm back to where I was the day before yesterday so needless to say I'm in a good mood again. I know I shouldn't be really and it's only because I lost weight but as long as I feel well it's fine right? At least I feel like getting up and doing things today. Yesterday it was an effort to lift my arm!

x-Bliss-