Hello, I'm not so much new here as I have been away for a few years. I struggled for a long time with anorexia and bulimia, I wouldn't eat for 3-4 days then when I would eat I would instantly make myself vomit. Sometimes when I ate it would be as small as 2 Tbsp of mashed carrots, sometimes I would binge and eat 4 pizza pockets. I have had relative peace over the last few years, not really actively dealing with an eating disorder. I still had my issues with food, but I would typically eat and enjoy eating. I eat very slow and it takes me several attempts (over potentially several hour) to finish one meal.

Long, and i mean LOOOOOOONNNNGGGG story short my husband was taken to jail on bogus charges we had been fighting for over a year, and in the after math of it I have really felt myself slipping into old, unhealthy eating habits. I may not eat for several days at a time, when I do I am extremely selective about only eating vegetables and water. I am becoming more obsessed with loosing weight and controlling my food and exercise. I had vegetable pizza last night (3 slices) an it was all I ate for over 24 hours and I spent all day fighting the urge to purge it up thinking I had over eaten. I compensated by doing an extra work out. After tallying up what I ate today and what I burned off exercising, I took in 92 calories. It feels like this is the one thing in my life I can control, which I know from experience is a warning sign of a dangerous spiral. I'm concerned that by the time my husband comes home, I will have fallen back into a full blown eating disorder.