there has been a lot of stress at home and at work and my ED has kicked up in high gear. it has been steadily getting worse, now it is bad. my adult daughter has had to be living at ome, in the den actually, after surgery on her ankle for a bad infection, in the beginning all was fine and I willing and wanted to take care of her even though she lives with her b/f for many years. she has visiting nurses come 3 days a week. her and my son who is still living home have gotten into it and the tension is so high I cant stand it anymore. my daughter is very bossy and tends to talk down to you and she claims that all she was doing was trying to help me and I obviously don't care as I have done nothing to change anything. all this and my job are so out of control that I am using fod to have control. I even feel like a failure in that. I am god during the day, I do have lunch but even though not hungry I eat at night, but obsess all day about how I look, look in the mirror to see if my face is thinner etc... I haven't called the specialist and she had said last time when I had stabilized to call her and get in if things go bad again, but I don't want to. I have lost some weight and I am happy, it is sick, as I know how ugly I look as it is. I keep busy all the time, don't allow myself to rest, as I feel it is lazy and I will gain weight even though my body says otherwise. any suggestions? sorry for the rant