Eating Disorders Support Group

Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.

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Smash 10/28/2007

Whenever I have a have a relapse in bulimia my hygeine level goes WAY down. Usually I am SO clean. I take at least two showers a day and I allways take the time to do things like paint my nails and straighten my hair. But when I relapse I just hate myself and I don't want to take care of myself anymore. I have to seriously force myself to shower once a day and I start to dress sloppyand my hair is all over the place. That is how my friends know that something is wrong.

I think this is so gross, but from what I have heard this is common for bulimics. Does anyone else do this?

deleted_user 10/28/2007

I think when you relapse you are probably in some deep depression and letting go off your hygiene and appearance is something a lot of depressed people do.

deleted_user 10/28/2007

I totally do this! I wont take a shower but every 3 days and then my mom has to make me!

deleted_user 10/28/2007

I'm the same...showering becomes intimidating as I have to face my own body and I despise it!...When I'm really having a bad time I end up sleeping a lot and getting out of bed, dressing and putting makeup on is all about making yourself look presentable so I avoid it at all costs!

deleted_user 10/28/2007

oh my god im glad im not the only one lol i too barely shower and i sleep all the time, i think its coz i just cant be bothered to do anything and purging is so tireing etc

Slimpics 10/28/2007

I don't even want to pass a mirror when I feel like you do. I even close my eyes when I'm getting dressed/undressed so as to avoid seeing my self- perceived ugliness and f**ness. I'll never understand why eating makes us feel so dirty that we'll neglect ourselves.

deleted_user 11/06/2007

yes, this is me without a doubt.
it was pretty bad this summer, i was feeling depressed the whole time and basically lost my job because the prospect of showering and brushing my hair regularly seemed impossible.

deleted_user 11/07/2007

I have to agree with charliem
I didn't want to face my body when I was bingeing...to look at myself and my face to
see what I looked like...it just would make me feel sooo down sooo I needed to fix this part or that part attitude and I didn't want to put myself thru that.
Hugz
Morgaine

sleepingbeauty 11/07/2007

I do this Ijust figure what the hey i look terrible anyway why bother

deleted_user 11/07/2007

I agree that everything gets chaotic. I will force my self to shower, though, and get obsessed with making my appearance look perfect to mask the mess I am, but I do not put my clothes away and my bathroom is disgusting. Binging and or purging is a messy draining business. The last thing that I want to do after messing up my electrolytes and getting super dehydrated is clean. When I am not in relapse I am also very clean.

deleted_user 11/07/2007

I am the same. When I'm depressed my house goes to hell. But occasionally, to avoid the urge to purge, (ha ha, I rhymed) I clean.

deleted_user 11/07/2007

I do this too!!!!!!!

AnneL 11/07/2007

Yes. If I go through a relapse period I totally space out on taking care of myself in all other areas. I don't wash my hair, I don't try to dress nicely etc etc and I am a person who usually likes to look good and put together. Maybe what we should try is dressing up and telling ourselves how lovely we are, maybe that would pull us out a little faster. Many blessings to you and don't tell yourself that you're gross, it only makes the cycle continue. xoxo to you

deleted_user 11/07/2007

defo no what you feek i have anorexia i do same if gained babes

deleted_user 11/07/2007

I know how you feel. When ever I'm feeling bad about myself, I just want to sit in bed for days, I have to force myself to get up. Showering is the worst, like others said, it's when you have to contend with your body, and I never want to do that.

deleted_user 11/08/2007

wow am i glad i am not the only one that does this one...i thought i was totally alone...

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