Eating Disorders Support Group

Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.

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janev825 10/21/2016

Hi everyone I've been ED free for 6 years now. However when I was trying on jeans yesterday ED was screaming in my head. He was saying "You're fat!" "You're fat!" Also I have chronic pancreatitis and am in constant pain. I'm going to St Louis University Hospital on November 10th because my pancreatitis doctor here said he can no longer help me. Anyway I'm drinking Boost for snack with my 3 o clock medication. I'm drinking Boost because solid food makes my pain worse. ED is telling me to stop drinking the Boost cuz it's making me fat. I know that part of my weight issue is because of my medications. I'm having body image issues too. Guys I need support and help right now because I'm struggling. Please and thanks.

sonnycamehome 10/21/2016

I am fairly new to ED Recovery, but I totally understand the voice that tells you you are fat. I also have several chronic illnesses, so I get how medical problems and medications can affect what/how you can eat as well as your weight. It's definitely not easy!
I wish I had some magic words of advice to give you but I don't...my thoughts are with you though, and please know you are not alone in your struggle.

forestfreek 10/21/2016

Sorry that you are struggling right now, janev. PLEASE know that this is absolutely 100% normal in recovery (actually it's pretty normal behaviour for most people to think "god I look fat right now" not just people recovering from an ED). The best I can tell you is to make YOUR voice in your head louder than what your ED thoughts are. When that happens try looking to the positive - it's extremely difficult and takes a lot of practise but with time it helps. When your head starts screaming that you're "fat" scream back at that thought with "god I look beautiful!!" or "wow, these jeans really accentuate what gorgeous curves I have!!" It's not an easy battle, but try not to get disheartened. It takes practice, practice and more practice.
HUGE hugs
Jen

janev825 10/21/2016

Thanks

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