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ann54
ann54
I have noticed for a bit now that when I do try and eat something different, usually not a healthy food, I put it in my mouth then I get shocked and spit it in my hand. why am I doing this, why wont I allow my body to enjoy something, will the fear ever go away? has anyone else ever done this?
oliveolive749
oliveolive749
I actually thought I invented this all on my own. When I went to Renfrew (an eating disorder clinic) I learned this was quite common. It's called chewing and spitting (go figure). It is considered a symptom of disordered eating. If you don't already have a therapist I highly recommend one. There are also eating disorder centers all around the country (like Renfrew, it was an awesome experience hard but awesome btw) that are very flexible with their payment plans. I don't know why your doing this. But I used it as a way to taste tasty food with out having to worry about the calories.
I 'm sorry you are going through this, I know how hard it is!!!!!!! You deserve to get better!
ann54
ann54
tank you oliveolive, I am anorexic trying hard to recover. I am not winning at the moment, and this doesn't make it beter. it is good to know I am not alone, I cant afford to go somewhere, I need my job and I am not "that" underweight, I know how that sounds. recently I have lost some of what I had regained, not doing it consciously but I did. troubling that it isn't bothering me more, esp. wth my sons wedding in june, but that has been and will be a huge stressor. thanks again
kathywonders
kathywonders
This behaviour used to govern my life (well it got way beyond spitting out just one bite now and then and developed into something huge and horrendous). Yes I understand. I understand very well. I hope so much this habit doest develop with you because it caused a lot of grief and shame (as well as being very wasteful).
On a positive note, the fear can go away. I havent done it for years and I havent felt the urge to do it either. Im looking for "the right thing" to say to you and I find Im confused because I dont have a "recipe for successful eating". I suspect stress from other areas of your life are making enjoyment of food rather stressful for you. Big Hugs! ( ( ( ) ) )
ann54
ann54
no worries about the right thing to say you already did. I know I have to stop this, I do have success in some areas, ate a small brownie yesterday. I don't think there is one recipe for getting better, I just have to find the one for me and do it!!!