Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.
I went to the gastro doctor the other day and she asked me what my daily food intake was, I told her and she said back in 09 It was literally the same foods! I was shocked and one would think I would say well, I really need to change I am definitely not in recovery. so far I haven't changed a thing, I just eat what I eat as it is easy, requires no cooking and I don't have to think about it. I was also surprised at my weight, I was weighed with my clothes on which is never the case and I weighed in at 129, I know it woud be less if I didn't have my sweater etc..on and that should be cause for alarm as a long time ago I should of regained the 10 pounds I lost after surgery. I have at least 3 more to go. I just don't seem to care, I cant imagine changing my diet even though that is what is affecting my issues, I don't want to cook and think, just exist. I have been told smoothies and things like that, but I don't do it. why cant I change even the slightest bit, one small thing? one would think I would be very concerned about this but in reality I am not. I don't want to lose more weight, I just don't want to gain and the mere thought of cooking as no appeal to me. I am so stuck in ed it is ridiculous.
Changing a diet that is easy to live with is a challenge. No need to try anything radical. Sounds as though youre not dangerously underweight (if youre average height) so I guess its OK to concentrate on keeping up the basic eating while you go through family issues and your return to a new job. Then you can try and make small changes!
I like the term "baby steps"... perhaps today try and change just one small thing. Feel the fear but try and face it and move forward some... I've found in recovery that my feelings, although needful to acknowledge, regarding the ED could not be trusted. I had to choose, as an act of my will, to take action which my "wise self" (a DBT term) knew would be helpful, not hurtful to me.
Yes re cooking - cooking for me is always a chore. I am married and my husband (a "normal" eater) needs good tasty satisfying food so it encourages me to take care of myself too. My mother was a professional in food industry for years, and amazing cook etc but as children whatever we did was never good enough. As a result, I hate cooking with a passion!!!.... and call myself the "anti-cook"! Ha! But there is a middle ground. I remember as a severe anorexic feeling that cooking for someone else would be the worst thing ever and I wondered how I would cope; the smell of cooking used to make me feel sick. Now I see it as a way I can daily do something nice for my hubby and I which we can share together. Its taken a long journey to get here.
Sorry your knee's hurting; can sympathise!! Have dodgy knees too.
Rest well and take good care...
Kim.