Eating Disorders Support Group

Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.

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jasgall 04/15/2010

i had fought the urge to binge for days, and then i couldn't stand it anymore. i had finished the combos my sister gave me, a bananna, and a pudding cup. i had alfredo noodles in the microwave. then dad came out. he asked me what i was doing. since i wasn't stuffing my face when he saw me, i had to actually explain it to him. and then i started crying. and because he's my dad and he's awesome, he just wrapped his arms around me and just held me. and then he wanted to TALK about it, and get into this deep discussion about why i do it and what i get out of it...and i just didn't feel like talking. it's so difficult to explain to someone who doesn't deal with it themselves, or at least has something to compare it to. so i ust went in my room and cried. i was so embarrassed. i was doing so well. i ust finished "the real me" which helped tremendously. even though it was hard to get through the book, it was very helpful. and i had been plugging away in the OA workbork. and now i ust feel so sick and disgusting. dad's home with dinner. uggg.-fallon

deleted_user 04/16/2010

You can turn this around and think of it as a positive thing. So you had a minor setback, a lapse. So what? It's not the end of the world. The good thing is that your dad knows now and wants to support you and take care of you.
You may not have wanted to talk at that point, when you were already feeling very vulnerable, but now you know that he is there for you and wants to listen.
Well done for for doing so well, I think this is an encouraging development.
Keep up the good work!
IP xx

peanutzz 04/16/2010

First of all your Dad sounds like a wonderful caring person. I can relate to when loved ones wanted to talk about it with me. It was so hard because here I am trying to explain something I didn't even understand myself. I can't blame you for not wanting to discuss it. But at least you have an open communication with him to talk about other things, the way you're feeling throughout your day, times when you're hurting. I'm sorry you're feeling this way. This disease carries so much shame, just know you aren't alone. You're at home with us. xo

deleted_user 04/17/2010

Can I first say, you are so lucky to have a dad that cares about you and (even though you didn't want to talk) was willing to listen to you. It sounds like you are doing a lot of work to help get yourself healthy and setbacks are to be expected. You can do it!

bingo9006 04/17/2010

I can so relate to the deer-in-the-headlights moment. Before I got married I was very worried about how having an ed would play out with a husband living in the house. There have been some challenging and awkward and even angry moments when I've had to swallow my pride and be uncomfortable. But I'm glad he is so caring and wants to be there for you, although sometimes well-meaning people who don't understand want to help but their help is not really helpful. Or we don't want the help and they end up feeling rejected. People have a hard time understanding this is a disease of isolation and we sometimes just want to be left alone or are not ready to communicate. I will say that on many occasions when my husband asked how was your day and at first I was closed up and didn't want to talk, when we sat down and I started talking, it was like the floodgates opening and the talking was very helpful to me. Or when we go for a walk together, we talk a lot and it makes me feel wonderful to just talk and get it all out. There are so few people that I can communicate with and be myself with and that are willing to listen, respect me, and not judge, it does me a world of good to talk to those people and really helps get out the junk in my head that is such a big part of my ed.

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