I do not know everything but I do know that the only times that I am not thinking about food is when I am too busy to do so. Sometimes if I know that I will try and binge eat I will have a normal sized meals and then leave the house, go away from food for a while and then it becomes impossible for me to fall to the temptation. Maybe pick up a hobby? Get a second job? Find something that takes up more time in your life that you do not have as much time to binge eat.

You are further along than I was when I got help. It took me years in recovery to recognize that it was the emotions I didnt want to feel, not the weight, not the food, not any of that stuff. It was the ritual, the purging of my feelings, and despite the guilt and remorse, and the fear, I felt "better" after I purged. I did this for years and years and years. I also developed a big drinking problem as I thought that drinking was more socially acceptable than barfing so I drank. eventually the two collided and I drank, binged and then purged. it was HELL. I got sober; got into a program of recovery, and havent had a drink, or mind altering drug; or binged or purged in almost 6 years. So seek help. its OUT there. Try a 12 step program; try therapy; but for me personally self help, and hobbies, failed. I needed much more help than that to recover. And recover I have and I'm very very grateful.

I have a fulltime job, from 8am-8pm, everyday of the week. I just find ways to do it there. I know what I need is therapy and they will give me the tools to deal with my emotions. I just dont know how to avoid a binge in the meantime. I found it very easy to do so the first day i opened up about it, second day i went through withdrawl, and third day i gave in and felt sooo guilty. But when i stopped binging and purging my stomach went crazy, I felt so sick, i was always cold and my mood swings went insane. I know thats temporary too, and with time my body will heal. I guess i am just so used to immediate gratification, I dont know, thanks for advice, I think i will try and distract myself as much as possible.

I will also be recieving therapy very soon, i know i need it. I am really scared, but I also know i want to live a full healthy life and have a family. And i am even more scared of losing that! thanks so much for sharing and encouraging me to do the right thing!!

I understand. I've been struggling w/ severe anorexia,& bulimia,for 20yrs. 1 thing I can tell you is that when purging ceases, there will be inevitable weight gain, however it's WATER! Try 2 educate yourself as much as possible about "refeeding syndrome" & edema. I can't tell u not to freak cuz I've been there & I've had it so bad I nearly lost my mind & had dangerous medical complications. Idk how long you've been bulimic or how severe you are, but I'd definitely get checked out by a Dr because there are so many physiological, hormonal, & neurological changes that happen as a result of eating disorder activity. If you're looking for ways to combat refeeding syndrome & get thru the "temporary" water weight that I can definitely help with! At this point I've been thru the most severe, traumatic, life threatening refeeding bouts, I think I'm an expert lol