Eating Disorders Support Group

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Body trouble:(

Smash
Smash
When I was anorexic I looked like I had an eating disorder, I mean, when you are barely eating it is pretty obvious. I felt like everyone could see how depressed I was by just looking at me. But now that I am Bulimic I have gained 25 pounds. Now I feel like people think that I don't have an eating disorder anymore and that all my problems are solved- like I don't need them to care about me anymore because I am a normal weight now. But the truth is that I feel even more alone and depressed than before because I can't stand being trapped in this body. It's so big and I just don't feel like I'm part of it- but the truth is that I made it this way.
Anyone else feel like they are an alien to their body??
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ALL THE TIME! I'm in a similar place too was anorexic gained 8 or 9 pounds now Ijust feel weird, I'm not used to this size its sooo different for me, but hey just think of the positives like nowe instead of bones I see attractive curves.....just a thought hope that was at least a lil helpfull,
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thats what I try to do anyway
Smash
Smash
you are soooo----ooo lucky, 8-9 pounds- I am envious. I thought that I could allways just binge and purge and quit when I wanted, now I am stuck in this cycle and all it is doing is plumping me up. I get why this is considered a mental illness now. It is making all of my worst fears come true (fat) and I still can not quit.
ooooh- sorry, I never rant unless it comes to the weight Iv'e gained.
I wish that I could see curves in a positive way.
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A lot of people with ED's have at least a mild form of obsessive complusive disorder I know when I was full blown anorexic I would weigh myself in the same place and at the same time each day, eat the same meal ect.... it might be to your benefit if you try to break your daily routines, don't allow yourself those free moments to binge (if its a time of day thing for you) or find something else to occupy yourself instead of b/p like drawing.... whatever your into
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I just want to hug you and take all the pain away. I feel to exact same way sometimes. I just want people to leave me alone. I want to tell them off.I feel trapped in my body too. But at the same time they just are concerned about you and that makes you special.
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EVERY SECOND OF EVERY DAY!
doesn't matter how big or how small i may be....it's always too big and this body i have, well "it can't possibly be MINE! this is just to horrible to live with!"
i feel foreign in my own skin...it's terrible
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Smash, I understand. I was hospitalized and all together I had gained 32 lbs. I'm kind of relapsing but I understand what you mean. This is NOT easy. Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever get over it. Only time will tell.
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yes,ma'am i always feel like that! i also started as anorexic and now that i have been bulimic am at a normal weight. everyday i struggle but mostly i am back to restricting. my bf gets on my ass because i told him too....yesterday i ate a chicken breast in front of him for the first time...i had never eaten in front of him before...and was shaking like a mfer. i hate ed!!