Eating Disorders Support Group

Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.

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xBlissx 01/13/2012

Well after my positive posts in my journal and goals earlier on.... I binged. I don't even know why I did it. Felt lonely I guess, so it might have been a bit of comfort eating. I ate dinner which was crap. I ate cherry crumble...again crap. Then because I'd messed up what I considered to be a good food day, I ate 2 chocolate bars. I then noticed I had 5 left. I got it into my head that it's the weekend tomorrow and so I would start fresh tomorrow. Eating healthy and cutting out sweet stuff completely as I can't seem to have it in moderation or I consider it a binge and end up eating even more. So after deciding this, just to make sure I wont be tempted, I ate the other 5.

I'm such a fat pig. I hate myself right now. At least when I was underweight, it didn't matter physically if I ate too much. I would be allowed to. But being a 'healthy weight' if I keep doing this, I'm going to be OVERweight :(

F*&K!

deleted_user 01/13/2012

I'm totally in the same boat with not being able to eat things in moderation so I eat all the crap at once when I realize I already ruined my day. Just to let you know, the worst binge in the world for a day won't ruin your diet. It takes a long time of bad eating to do damage. Don't stress, tomorrow's a new day. (:

deleted_user 01/13/2012

I'm the same way. I can't eat sweets or starches in moderation. The other day I ate a whole loaf of bread because I had a piece, then couldn't stop. :(

deleted_user 01/13/2012

It is going to be better. I've been where you are. You will fail a couple of times, but that isn't what counts. What counts is if you get up again or not, and I promise you that everytime you'll get up after falling, the harder it will become to fall back again, you will grow more steady by each time you get up.

If it makes you feel any better I have actually lost some weight that I gained during recovery just because I don't binge anymore. Yes, there are times when I overeat, like yesterday for example: 2 hours after dinner I ate 1 whole wheat toast, I felt a little bit guilty so I ate 2 more, but then I stopped because I realized that I was eating for the wrong reasons. I felt guilty this morning but I made it through and now I feel okay again!

It will take time. Be patient, be strong, recovery is hard. It may be one of the most challenging things that you've ever done in your life, but it's worth it! I feel so much more peaceful right now. I love my life. And even though last year was the worst year of my life because of recovery, it has made me happier than ever.

deleted_user 01/14/2012

i totally understand if i screw up during the its all down hill after

deleted_user 01/15/2012

i know exactly what you mean! im the same, im up to a healthy weight now and terrified that ill become overweight form my binges..ill eat healthy then if i have a slip up like i have something sugary even small i hate myself for it and i eat more by thinking ive slipped up. then i manage to stop but im the mindset of ill start fresh tomorow and to stop temptation usually eat the bad things like chocolate too-actually i eat and spit them usualy which still means i eat alot of it in the end. im always blaoted too and struggling. i knwo im much happier than when i was skeletal and depressed so i try and remind myself of that everyday: better to have a bit of weight and be happy and enjoy life than to be super skinny that people find unattrCTIVE, AND HAVE FOOD RUIN YOUR LIFE AND you end up with no life at all. its what i try and remind myself.

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