If I did this, I'd be in alot of trouble. Total relapse.

Are you bulimic though or prone to binging?

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I should have been a chef.. That is all I do is cook. I am the only female at work I have 15 guys that work for me. They love it because I bring in so much food to work.I love the smell of food cooking and the whole process. Know if I could get the eating thing in check Id be much better off.And yes I am bulimic.

I have loads of cookery books, make trays and trays of cakes for every event that comes along, but feel guilty if I eat any. It's a common thing with ED to obsess about food and baking, and if you have an obsessive nature it's understandable. It can be quite a stumbling block to recovery though, so if you have a therapist it's something you need to discuss with them.
At the risk of sounding flippant, you could send any spare round to the depression community:they're always willing to eat.

I tend to obsess over the idea of cooking and looking up healthy recipes but then never get around to making them. I do like to cook though, but I only cook/bake things that I know I'll be able to eat a small portion of. Like I'll make some health muffins and I'll eat one for a snack and leave the rest for my family to devour over the next couple days. The recipe obsession is exhausting though.

i did for a while cos i baked cake i loved so i would smell and look that's what you are doing you want to eat them so instead you feed others
does ya mum no about this ed

Oh, honey, that is completely normal for some of us anorexic's! Let me just tell you that I have always been that way!!! I have been anorexic since I was age 15 & I am age 51 now. I have spent countless hours obsessing over the Food Network in the last few years! Before that I read cookbooks from cover to cover & planned all kinds of goodies. I also spend many hours in grocery store's gazing at all the different foods on the shelf. I know it does not make sense, but obviously it is part of this illness. I have spent 3 hours at Kroger & only left with 2 items! Sometimes when I can afford it - I have bought tons of groceries that never were used. Or, I totally obsess with baking for everyone else. I can bake any goody out there & sometimes, on occasion, I may allow myself to lick the batter spoon 1 time only?? I do not taste the cake, pie, or cookies after it is done. But, that 1 lick of the batter spoon is heavenly until I feel guilty. Thanks for sharing this. I know I drive my family crazy!

becoming obsessed with cooking is a common ED symptom. That's when it started for me when i was in my mid teens.

OMG i was the same!!!!
When i never used to eat i baked all the time.I was also obsessed with cooking channels.

Isnt it weird how you dont eat but are super obsessed with food???
I used to get my kick from looking at food.
Weird huh.

I notice i cook alot when I am stressed...specially desserts

Wow I definitely identify with you. Looking back in hindsight, I can see what I was doing even more clearly. I always watched food network, baked all the time, sometimes I would look up different recipes to get my fill. And another thing... I loved going to the grocery store. I would pick up every item I could and look at the nutrition facts. No joke, I have actually spent hours in grocery stores... and I would go to multiple ones because I knew they had different items.
I think it's because when we deny ourselves the food that our body needs, we try to compensate in other ways. I thought about food so much, that since I wouldn't eat it, I had to do other things associated with it. I also just liked how going into a grocery store was a place where food was accepted and encouraged, and with myself I was the oppposite. It was like I was in a foreign country, and I loved it.
Wow, this is theraputic to get this out, haha.
Not that I'm unaffected by it right now, but I've learned how to manage it better, and I've put food back into my life. But we all know.... the ED never completely leaves.

I spend a lot of time in grocery stores too, looking at all the nutrition facts and just browsing through all the different foods... I feel so weird in my usuals now because the workers must think I'm crazy! And sometimes I do end up buying things because I feel like I have to leave with at least SOMETHING but then whatever I buy usually ends up sitting around and going unused. I'm so disgusting, I even have to catch myself because I stare at food that people are eating... it's almost like I'm eating through watching them. Like today my friend was eating this orange chicken bowl next to me, and I swear I could not focus on the conversation because I couldn't stop fantasizing about her food. And I'm not even starving myself right now! I wonder how long it will take for me to get over these weird thoughts and behaviors.

Yeah I know what you mean, sometimes I swear the workers wondered what was wrong with me and why I was there so much but yet left with so little. Can we laugh at ourselves right now because it IS kinda funny! Haha. At least we're in the same boat. Next time the grocery store thing happens, we should try to laugh about it. Yeah it's not normal, but it is a little funny. Hope this makes ya smile ;)

*nods* completely normal. It's often common for anorexics to adore cooking because of our obsession with food. Like, we're extending the reaches of our control. when we eat (or not as the case may be) we are in control of what goes in our mouths and by cooking food for others, we control what they eat.
I'm completely the same as you. I adore cooking and baking but loathe eating what I cook. Coincidently, I actually have a cake in the oven at the moment.

Enjoy your cooking and do try and sample your work occasionally :)

If you read up on anorexia you will find out that actually almost all anorexics love to cook and are very good at it. It gives them satisfaction to feed others, while they deny themselves the minimum to survive.
I always feel like an exception because I absolutely hate cooking and baking.