Eating Disorders Support Group

Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.

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bunnieluver18
bunnieluver18
I just got back from inpatient treatment. My insurance paid for 24 days. And now I'm home. I am struggling so much. I really wish that I wasn't. But I am terrified that this struggle so soon after getting home (yesterday) is only going to get worse. I've got months yet before ill even be close to a healthy weight. Why am I struggling so much?!? I had treatment. I feel so guilty for struggling.
deleted_user
deleted_user
24 days treatment is not that long! is there aftercare program?
try and think what helping and focus on doing that for next few hours.
its a long term struggle to recover, and you will have to work at it, but you can.
give yourself more time.
bunnieluver18
bunnieluver18
Zero aftercare. I don't even have my therapist to lean on because she is in the hospital still after over a month. And I live alone. I feel so scared. I came so close to dying and I know that one small relapse would put me back on a heart monitor in the hospital or worse, 6 feet under.
deleted_user
deleted_user
time for a new therapist hun. Perhaps contact your public health department for options that are low cost. Or contact the rehab facility you were in for list of resources. They should have given you that. Until you are medically stable they are legally obligated to give you access to continued care.
ann54
ann54
i agree, until you are medically in a good place thery must give you care. it is no wonder you are scared, 24 days is next to nothing, given the condition you are in. i vote for a new therapist asap, keep focusing on what you did learn and take it minite by minute idf you have to, and journal. good luck.
bunnieluver18
bunnieluver18
The problem is that on death's doorstep and healthy exists on a continuum. Because my blood pressure began to be in the low normal (as opposed to practically nonexistent) range, my insurance decided I was stable enough to go home. I don't know where else to turn. I feel like I could scream from my rooftop and no one would hear me even then.