I'm so sorry your aunt made such a thoughtless and petty comment. You have every right to be upset.
It sounds like you have worked really hard on your recovery and that you have so much to be proud of. It's hurtful when people don't recognize that and say mean things.
It was brave of you to reach out here and express yourself.

Hello Karinna - welcome to the group. I am so sorry that your aunt hurt you so badly with her, as sonny said, thoughtless comment. I was a few years younger than you when my great grandmother looked at me and said "You're getting fat!" and then moved on with the conversation. I was obliterated by her comment. It's hurtful when anyone calls us 'fat' but so much more hurtful when a relative says it. I am so very sorry you were hurt in this way too.

I am glad you were able to gain back the weight and recover - are you working with a therapist to help you with this? Is the therapist helping you to learn how to feel your feelings and express them safely? ED's are coping mechanisms we use when our feelings are so strong and it's not safe to express them. For example: being hurt and angry when your aunt said that was the right way to feel. You said you wanted to cry - did you let yourself cry? I know I would have cried an ocean if someone said that to me (I think I did 'way back when' but not in front of anyone). ((hugs))

I am so sorry your aunt hurt you with her comment. Some people just don't understand that the things they say have a huge effect on others. I know how hard it is to brush those things off, but I hope you were able to look at how far you've come in your recovery and realize how strong you are! You should be proud of the woman you are and how far you have come! <3

I've told my therapist in the past but because I have worst things going on we focus more on them. I recovered by myself. I had to fight it alone. I am proud that I did it alone but even being recovered the itch is still there. The thoughts pop up all the time.

I am so sorry this happened to you. I can't believe she said that! You are right! How dare she?! That being said, I sense your anger and sadness (which, you have every right to be angry and sad!). I'm wondering, how did you handle this situation afterwards? It's okay to let yourself be angry and sad. And it's okay to let your aunt know how she made you feel, though that's a nerve wracking thing to do.

I am so proud of you for how far you've come in this recovery process. And you should be proud too! You've reached out to people on here which is such a brave step.

Now comes more of the emotional recovery. It's great how you've identified your emotions in this situation. You said you still hate yourself every time you eat something, which is probably something to work on. Maybe a journal where you identify your feelings before and after a meal may help? I'm wondering if you have experience seeing a therapist? Often times, he or she really helps in bringing emotions out on the table. I didn't even realize my ED stemmed from my emotions and past until I started seeing a therapist.

I hope these tips are helpful and I hope you are doing okay! Remember, it's okay to be sad - you have every right to be. Let me know if you have any questions. Sending hugs your way!!