I seem to go threw this daily! One day ill have yogurt... oatmeal... veggies... and about two bits of chicken or a hard boiled egg... thats all i can seem to do for that day... but then the next day if im stressed out then its all i wanna do is eat... or i might get upset and feel the need to B & P.... its so hard to avoid this crazy extreme up and down in my diet and i know it just makes things worse but i cant stop it. I cant ever seem to get 3 full meals in one day the best i can set a goal for is 2. Very frusturating but i guess its all about babysteps and taking a meal at a time. Hugggzzz just want you to know youre not alone.. its very hard!

One thing I came to realize is that when you have had an ED for a long time, your brain stops being able to know when you are hungry and when you are full. If you feel one or the other, it is more likely to be psychological and false than real. So make up a healthful eating plan with a nutritionist and then follow it without regard to whether you feel full or hungry. Those are probably false signals.

I have the same problem, its so annoying, frustrating scary. I was up until 1am last night, which is pretty late for me as I have been trying to regulate my sleep schedule, but I want soo sad and scared and felt so alone. I wanted to talk with one of my recovery buddies but she has been super busy the past few days and last night she said I could call but I was so tired and sad I said no. And I wanted so badly to get out of bed and binge like crazy because of the emotions but also, the more I thought about binging the hungrier I got. I haven't felt hunger all week and I was so scared because I felt like I should eat because my body was telling me I needed food but I really didn't want to b/p. So yeah that's a terrifying feeling for me, hunger. It makes me feel out of control. I think the only way to regulate our hunger is to eat complete balanced moderate meals without purging or over exercising (I don't do it often but it makes me hungrier on days when I do do it) or restrciting. I know this is easier said then done, if it were easy we wouldn't be here. But thats what we gotta do :) I suggest you work with a nutritionist/dietician to help you with a meal plan and a friend or family member willing to help you stick with it. I wish you the best of luck! Feel free to PM me if you'd like. I love recovery buddies!

do you have a food plan? I ask because 1) if what you are describing is all you are eating during the day, it doesn't sound like enough food. if you are not getting enough clories for your body, this could trigger ED behavior easily. 2) if you had a food plan, you would be eating something every couple of hours - this will help you have more energy, clearer thinking/functioning, and keep your blood sugar stable. this can help take away the crazy need to starve, binge, purge, whatever. Personally, I eat every 2-3 hours and it absolutely helps for so many reasons...it definitely helps me meet my daily food requirements because I never feel stuffed, I feel satisfied and fed instead.

If you have a team of people - nutritionist, therapist, etc., - helping you, maybe you need to reevaluate your food plan? if nothing else, tell them what your struggles are b/c it sounds like you have made a lot of progress and might just be a little stuck.

one more thing. September is far away - can you make a change in the appt so you can go this week? this is not something you should wait on to discuss with a doc.

i do not have a food plan. my therapist and i have been discussing me seeing a nutritionist, but she has not officially referred me yet. i think it's absolutely time to enlist more support because my eating has been very all over the place this week. with the exception of thursday, i have only eaten dinner all week. friday, i only had an apple. i will call my doctor tomorrow and see if i can move the appointment, but i am supposed to be moving this week and am not sure when i will have the time.