So just a few weeks ago, I got caught drinking and of course I am underage so now I have to go through a diversion program. This, essentially, is where you go through counseling, pay deterrent fee, refrain from usage of any illegal substance and do some community service. After you successfully complete all of these you get the charge expunged off your record. Well this sounds all fine and dandy... well the story is not over yet. This past weekend, on friday, we partied in my room. Saturday, cops showed up and searched my room and found a bunch of empty liquor bottles and some weed. So I got arrested and charged with possession of marijuana. So needless to say I am in a lot of trouble. The school I attend now is a private military college so there is a good chance I might get kicked out. This was my number one choice and I fucked it up. So the past week has been hard. The stress has been killing me and ED is kicking my ass. I don't eat. I'm just so nervous and guilty about the whole thing. I think the fear of not knowing what is going to happen is eating away at me. My life has been 1 step forward and 2 steps back, I can't get out of this hole and it is so frustrating.