Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.
Alright. I keep telling myself, no-PROMISING-myself: no more binging!
There are a thousand reasons..i hate my body. I hate that fifteen or so extra pounds. I hate that I don't want to wear my jeans bc they hurt.
I hate how badly I'm treating my body. I hate how I'm 23 now but I fear i'm putting my body through something that will make it much older later. I am stuffing myself with junk until i hurt, and i do it often. If i keep this up, i will give myself some major health problems, either now or later on.
And...to get a little spiritual..I am being gluttonous. I am hurting the gift God gave me. Destroying it, even. I am wasting food by eating large amounts i don't need. And i am LOSING my self control. that is one thing that scares me the most. I don't have self-discipline or control.
Confession: I keep telling myself "this is the last time, so i'll go all out with this cake or two huge bowls of ice cream and that's it!" BUt i make EVERY binge the last goodbye binge, then do it again the next day. I have to make it for real. Yesterday was a coffe/brownie/donut/pizza/ice cream day. Oh yeah, and a little scoopfull of fruit. I am serious...those are the only foods i ate all day. the peperoni pizza was my healthy point of the day (besides the fruit in the morning).
So why am i telling everyone this? i couldn't tell anyone around me that that was all i ate all day. I can't anyone i notice my thighs and stomach expanding...that i have dreams that i am much bigger than i am. that i have no bodily control of what i shove in my mouth. So i wanted to tell someone...at least someone on here will read this, though i don't really know or see them. it will help to know I put this out there..so i can maybe promise myself to stop and actually listen this time.
sorry for the length. If you read this, THANK YOU.
There are a thousand reasons..i hate my body. I hate that fifteen or so extra pounds. I hate that I don't want to wear my jeans bc they hurt.
I hate how badly I'm treating my body. I hate how I'm 23 now but I fear i'm putting my body through something that will make it much older later. I am stuffing myself with junk until i hurt, and i do it often. If i keep this up, i will give myself some major health problems, either now or later on.
And...to get a little spiritual..I am being gluttonous. I am hurting the gift God gave me. Destroying it, even. I am wasting food by eating large amounts i don't need. And i am LOSING my self control. that is one thing that scares me the most. I don't have self-discipline or control.
Confession: I keep telling myself "this is the last time, so i'll go all out with this cake or two huge bowls of ice cream and that's it!" BUt i make EVERY binge the last goodbye binge, then do it again the next day. I have to make it for real. Yesterday was a coffe/brownie/donut/pizza/ice cream day. Oh yeah, and a little scoopfull of fruit. I am serious...those are the only foods i ate all day. the peperoni pizza was my healthy point of the day (besides the fruit in the morning).
So why am i telling everyone this? i couldn't tell anyone around me that that was all i ate all day. I can't anyone i notice my thighs and stomach expanding...that i have dreams that i am much bigger than i am. that i have no bodily control of what i shove in my mouth. So i wanted to tell someone...at least someone on here will read this, though i don't really know or see them. it will help to know I put this out there..so i can maybe promise myself to stop and actually listen this time.
sorry for the length. If you read this, THANK YOU.
confessing on paper is the first step-sometimes it helps give you perspective if you write waht you are eating when you are binging...you see wow this is absurd!
I'm here anytime you need to talk
xoxo
Ali
ps your baby is adorable!