Eating Disorders Support Group
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Please, I'm in tears! I feel like ripping my hair out, cutting, smashing my fist through a window, ANYTHING but living the way I am at the moment!!!
Does anyone relate to this? If you do please help me!!!
I keep having days where I'm restricting like crazy, can't eat ANYTHING apart from salad or veg I've been losing weight too...but then I have a crazy night or two of bingeing. It's getting worse and I'm scared. I binge to the point of feeling sick but I think it's mainly because it's all sweet stuff rather than the amount.
I can't purge, I never have been able to so it ALL stays inside. I take laxatives afterwards because I freak out but I know this doesn't get rid of it. It's just helps me a little psychologically.
Then I spend the next few days restricting and exercising again and each time my weight goes down a bit extra.... but then I crave another binge. It's doing my head (and my stomach) in! I hate it so much!!!
Thing is when I'm restricing I'm ok. I don't crave, but my Mum, obviously she tries to get me to eat more than veg or salad, and it's when I do this... (break my veg or salad restriction) than I think, "sod it, I've already broken it so I'll binge". If I don't eat ANYHING I'm ok.
I'm trying to get help but I know the only way I'm going to get the help I need is to go inpatient, but I'm never going to get to inpatients if I keep bingeing because my weight wont go low enough.
HELP ME PLEASE!!! I'm sorry this is so long! I'm so upset right now!!!
xBlissx
Does anyone relate to this? If you do please help me!!!
I keep having days where I'm restricting like crazy, can't eat ANYTHING apart from salad or veg I've been losing weight too...but then I have a crazy night or two of bingeing. It's getting worse and I'm scared. I binge to the point of feeling sick but I think it's mainly because it's all sweet stuff rather than the amount.
I can't purge, I never have been able to so it ALL stays inside. I take laxatives afterwards because I freak out but I know this doesn't get rid of it. It's just helps me a little psychologically.
Then I spend the next few days restricting and exercising again and each time my weight goes down a bit extra.... but then I crave another binge. It's doing my head (and my stomach) in! I hate it so much!!!
Thing is when I'm restricing I'm ok. I don't crave, but my Mum, obviously she tries to get me to eat more than veg or salad, and it's when I do this... (break my veg or salad restriction) than I think, "sod it, I've already broken it so I'll binge". If I don't eat ANYHING I'm ok.
I'm trying to get help but I know the only way I'm going to get the help I need is to go inpatient, but I'm never going to get to inpatients if I keep bingeing because my weight wont go low enough.
HELP ME PLEASE!!! I'm sorry this is so long! I'm so upset right now!!!
xBlissx
Is there anyone you can talk to right now? Anyone you trust?
You could try distracting yourself... I know it's easier said than done, but you could try reading or listening to music? I was feeling bad too so currently I'm watching a funny film.. Has helped loads.
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I'm so ashamed of myself, I just want to die... it's would be so much easier!
x-Bliss-x
I hate this life. I understand it, why I do it but I can't stop. I don't know what to do!
what you are doing is normal standard Ed behavior, dont be ashamed !!!!!
keep seeking help, work hard...