I hope you make some new friends, also. I get some really smart remarks on my journal sometimes, really upsets me. I am not around a lot anymore, due to problems I am facing. Larissa has been such a good friend to you and I wish I could comment more, but right now, my depression is hitting an all time high and so many think that I should do this or that. To be honest, I just don't need it.

However, onto you. Yes, we all make mistakes, we all want people to comment something POSITIVE on our journals to help us out. This I say to you. You are strong, you go to work every day, you are not a failure and ED is hard to handle, as I know from my friend. None of us are perfect, we make decisions for survival or otherwise. You fall into the category of being human and strong. I think we all need to hear positve comments, not well, are you still going through this or that? Comments on journals should be exchanged and I lack in that because of things I am going through myself. I certainly wish you would take a good look at all of your strengths. You and I could wrestle sometime. Hugs and tell Larissa I said she is wonderful to you.

lucy, thanks again for all the kind words, you I know you are always here for me, and I also know you are facing hard times, but you too are strong and we can do it, somehow. yeah, I don't want or need negative I give myself enough negatives to sink a ship. on the contrary to what you think of me and my strengths, I don't see them as one.

I definitely see you as a strong woman who is really fighting hard to battle this eating disorder. I see you struggle each day to eat your bar at work and to eat your lunch at work and to do what you need to do. You have a lot going on at work and I know things are not going as well as you would like at work...you work so hard there and are always getting you work done and in the most mature way without causing waves. I know that weighing yourself is really an issue for you and now that you have lost a few pounds you are wanting to keep that trend going even though you know that you cannot do that...you need to stay in the weight gain mode...that is such a hard place to be...that is where I am at the moment as well. I don't weigh myself at all...my nutritionist weighs be blindly so I have no clue what I weigh...it was hard to get used to but it really works for me. You really seem to be a great mom who cares a lot about your son...do you only have one child? You mentioned something about sibling rivalry in one of your journal entries but I was thinking you only had one son...you have done a great job as a mother and continue to do so. How can I help you on your journey to recovery from your ed? Would you like to be accountability buddies? I am here to help you in any way that I can. I always read your journal entries. I did not know how journals work...I did not know that people wanted replies...I would love to reply to your journals...I always have something to say that is positive. Let me know how I can be of help to you!!

Sarasota, you are so kind to have such an interest in me as you have your own struggles. the journals are for us to write but feel free to comment since we are friends, I set mine to friends only. I would love suggestions and support. I have 2 sons and a daughter who just turned 30! they are worried but have given up, no more expectations for them for me to change and sit and eat with them or at a restaurant. ed truly runs everything and ruins everything.

I'm new here and I'm looking for friends. I would love to be your friend and we can help each other. I don't know your struggles but I'm sure you are a fighter since you are on here. Know that you are not alone.