Thanks for sharing...that is very sweet, you sound like a very loving mother and she does deserve to have your love in her life as long as possible : )

what a loving journal, your daughter is blessed to have you as a mom. do you discuss your ED with her? this can be a motivation, but it deep down has to come from you wanting to kick ED out. you are a wonderful mom and it is obvious your daughter loves you, so fight and fight hard. hugs

Wow that was a precious moment - hold on to the memory of that when the ED screams at you. The power of love is immeasurable; you are loved, can give love to others and also receive their love.

What love means to me - A long time ago I had a "lightbulb" moment - I'm either walking in love or I'm walking in fear, there's no grey area between. Love doesn't mean we are perfect or that others are, it doesn't mean we have to accept harmful or hurtful behaviour from ourselves or others.... it does mean we can allow others into our inner world as we are able and feel safe enough to do so, it does mean we can set healthy boundaries that respect ourselves and others, it does mean we can be silly and fun and "play" and allow that inner child to express herself from time to time..

As you work on your health and recovery day by day you are expressing love for yourself and others around you.

You are so doing well; thanks for sharing that beautiful moment you had with your daughter. By the way, what sort of dancing does she do (I'm an ex Ballerina)...

Kim x

Thank you. :0) I did well over the weekend eating with my girl. It was/is really hard but I'll keep fighting. Kim- thanks for sharing what love is to you. I am in fear most of the time, but have moments with my girl where briefly I only feel huge love for her. I'll try to bring this to mind when I'm struggling. Outside of my daughter I keep people at a distance, or push them away. I am not so good at love yet. Especially being loved, tough one for me. I never feel good enough. I'll keep on keepin' at it. Thanks for your kind words.

Oh, and my daughter is in ballet, clogging, jazz and some technique classes. She just performed a duet with her best friend. It was beautiful to see them dance together.

You are welcome!

Thanks for letting me know about the dancing - busy wee girl eh :)

That's great that she has that creative outlet - so important as many young ones these days don't do enough relationally or with their bodies only their minds (ie computer games, social networking etc).

Kim x

Yeah, its been great, she's made a lot of friends and she loves to dance. She is dropping out of her company this year though, she says to focus on school. But she'll still take dance at school. Teen years are rough, I pray she makes it through ok and avoids the high risk behaviors I used to cope! She's still showing signs of ED and body image issues but I question my perception. I don't know how to help her besides forcing myself to eat and be a good example for her, and of course watching what I say around her. Sucks.

What you live and model is always more powerful than what you can say, especially with children and teenagers. You are doing great as a Mum; keep up the good work :)