HI EVERYBODY IT'S DISNEY..... I can't believe it's been almost 2 years since he left and I first found Daily Strength. I remember my hands were shaking and I could barely see the keyboard because of all the tears. I remember thinking who's gonna care anyway, he didn't care about me and I gave him 23 years right???
Well I couldn't have been anymore wrong!!!! My fairy God Mother Cowgirl Kathy was the first to welcome me and without her Love, Guidence, Wisdom and Patience with me I would have never come this far. Along with all the other beautiful sisters who have shared their stories and knowledge with me over the past almost 2 years now I want to say THANK YOU FOR ALL YOUR LOVE AND SUPPORT.

I haven't been on much over the past couple months because I moved out of my apt and in with my oldest son for a couple months while MY OWN HOUSE IS BEING PAINTED AND TILED WAITING FOR AUSTIN AND I TO MOVE IN!!!! Yep I did it I got us our own home it's a small but beautiful little home just big enough for the 2 of us and my dog sofia of course. My daughter Shelby moved out on her own with some girlfriends and I finally feel all our lives are back on track as they should be. I have my final Divorce Trial set for Auguest 22nd can you believe he still won't sign the papers???? After floating around from woman to woman over the past year and a half stbx is on number 3 but this one is true love LOL. He is still in arears 9,800 but finally after 6 months when he took a job working for someone else I got his wages garnished and support is finally coming in every week.

Now however he feels he is settled down and ready to be a parent again. SO HE IS NOW TRYING TO GET CUSTODY!!! uggg will it ever end??? I believe there is an end in sight I can see the finish line, the light at the end of the tunnel, the rainbow after the storm it's right there I just have to hang on a little longer and he will be but a distant memory.
I wanted to say to all the new comers and there have been alot over the past couple months that we all started where you are now. We were devasted, heartbroken, lied to, our worlds came crashing down and we felt like there was no end in sight. Hopeless, Scared, Depressed, Confused, Wishing the sun would never come up so we could stay in bed right???

Please remember you are not alone, Write your feelings down in a journal on your computer somewhere so a few months from now you can go back and see where you started. A year from now, a few years from now and see how much stronger and smarter, and wonderful you are today then when you first wrote those words. I lost everything my home we worked 20 yrs for, my car, even sold the washer and dryer and refridgerator so I could feed my kids and pay the bills. I HAD NOTHING, Except the love of my family and friends and the belief that one day i would get it all back and show that runaway, irresponsible, abandoning husband that he was not going to be the end to my story. I still had alot to live for and even though it was painfully hard somedays to get up and keep gong I DID IT, AND SO CAN YOU.
Listen to the advice of your mentors here on DS reach out to a friend i'm here and would love to chat and help anyone that needs it just send a request to disneymom65.
Last but not least remember to LET GO AND LET GOD... He is the one that can give you strength when you most need it, he will show you the way......
Big Big Disney Hugs:)