Ok, posting twice in the same day is a rare thing for me, but I kinda need a little support. Since my separation more than two years ago my ex has been hiding in the shadows in terms of an online presence. He's quite the coward, and I figured this was because there were too many people who would rip him a new one if he posted anything. I've been very grateful for this, to be honest. I really didn't want to see photos of him with the OW. Today this has suddenly changed. He started posting you tube videos of his new wife playing with her dogs in the backyard. Everything is all happy and wonderful, and it's hitting me harder than I expected. I happened on the videos accidentally through a link sent to my daughter. This is very out of character for him, so I'm wondering why all of a sudden would he start posting these videos. He never did this when we were married, not even of his own children.

While I couldn't see him, I could hear him in the video laughing. It's hard for me to hear him laughing and know that he is so happy. It was far easier for me to pretend that maybe he was just so-so, muddling through life. Why does this bother me so much? I've come so far, and yet this one stupid 40 second video has thrown me for a loop. I guess it goes back to my earlier post about injustice. It's so not fair for him, the cheater and liar, to be so happy and settled in a new life with someone who loves him while I remain alone. But, I know, life isn't fair. I just don't like having my face rubbed in it, and that's how it feels. My ex is a very private person. This is a very bold move on his part, to post something so public. I seriously wonder about his motives. What's worse, why do I care? I hate it that this bothers me, but it does.

Any words of wisdom out there? I could sure use them? I'm so tired of doing this tango - three steps forward and two steps back. I wish he would go back into the shadows where he belongs!