I know some of you may have wondered if I fell off the face of the planet. I've been away for quite a long time. There are so many new people here, which makes me both sad and glad to get to know their stories. And, I've missed the familiar ones. After this last semester, the most brutal I've ever experienced, I wasn't sure I was going to survive the whole college education experience. But, survive I have. I'm now only 4 months away from graduation!! I'm slowly trying to play catch up on the posts and get to know some of the new members.

I'll soon be moving again, after graduation, to be closer to my friends and begin yet another new chapter in my life. I wish I could say that everything was humming along seamlessly in the healing and recovery journey. Although I'm nearing the 3 year mark, I'm still been battling some intense anger and lately fear. I think the fear stems from uncertainty about my ability to provide for myself post graduation. I thought I had finally put most of my fears and anxiety to rest. I guess there's still a lot more room for growth and healing. All in good time. I keep trying to redirect my fears back to gratitude for all the many blessings I've experienced.

I hope you have all enjoyed a wonderful holiday with your family and friends. My son specifically asked to spend Christmas with me, which turned out to be beyond wonderful. We really bonded over the holiday. Those of you who have followed my story will know what a monumental step forward that is for my relationship with my son. I am eternally grateful.

While my future remains uncertain, and the jobs reports aren't always very reassuring, I know for certain that I never would have had the opportunity to finish college and embark on this exciting new adventure in my life had I still been married to my ex. It's terrifying when your whole life suddenly changes, especially when you have little to no control over those changes. But, good things can also come from it.

All my best to everyone,
Kim