I've had a lot more downs than ups lately so Monday I decided to get back on track. I started by working out again with my co-workers at lunch. I decided about a month ago to change my schedule at work to come in a half hour later and not take an hour lunch, thought I'd get more done at home and would help with things all around. I thought I'd exercise in the mornings and that'd didn't happen like I wanted. I was either too tired or just made every excuse in the book. I was becoming very unhappy not being out with my friends and working out. I didn't realize till then how important a buddy system is. So glad I'm back and making exercise fun with friends.

I've had a good few days so far and trying to just stay focused and stay on track. I'm in a happy place right now and hope for it to continue and try thinking differently about things and life instead of sweating the small stuff. I know I am not perfect but I am very hard on myself and I don't know how long this up will stay up but I know when I am down I get myself right back up and try again. Never give up on yourself no matter what.

Someday I will get there but I need to focus on being happy and healthy and not wanting to be this other person that I know I will never be. My husband married me for me and not a skinny model....lol. I need to accept that along with my curves that he loves. Life is too short and going by too fast and I wanna change that. I wanna remember the happy days and not dwelling on my weight all the time. It just makes me very unhappy and I let it get the best of me at times.

You are not alone. Stay positive, stay motivated, get a buddy system going, do your best and when you have a bad day or meal, make the next one better!

Thanks for reading. Just wanted to get this out there to remind myself that I am doing good by staying focused right now on ME and being happier.