It is shameful and i understand it all to well. I've been diabetic for 15 years. The last year, year and a half, I went through a depression and denial period. I quit moitoring my sugars, slowly started eating what I wanted, and Feb 6th went into the ICU - sugars near 400, precoma, etc. All my body chemistry was screwed up. I am now like the nations #1 poster child for diabetes. I've brought my sugars down to 95-166 ( getting there slowly) and started a major low carb diet which has helped me lose 7 lbs already. With my outrageouse eating prior to my hospital stay I had gained 15 lbs - afterlosing 117 lbs 7 years ago.
So yes, I thought I was invincibale. I'm ashamed that I lost it. I'm an adult...I know better, and it almost cost me my life and family...daughters whom I love, a wonderful husband.
So don't be ashamed, just turn it around...your knkowledgable..fall back on that. I also am following a low glycemic diet, on my own with the help of the New Glucose Revolution Low GI guide books by Dr. Jennie Brand-Miller. Its helping. Good luck, and if you ever need a friend to listen/understand, i'm here and i've been there and done that!!

Thank you so much for your reply! Sorry for your struggles, but GLAD that you understand and can offer support. Isn't that ironic that our short-coming work in other people's favor? LOL

I have started with NutriSystem again, kind of modified for my lifestyle. It is tough because I work in the evenings. I was having a tendacy to eat dinner with my husband after 10 p.m. at night, and whatever those choices were shooting my blood sugar right up overnight.

I am usually pretty hungry after work, so it would not work to not eat at all. But I have to learn to eat more lightly. With Nutrisystem, it is a matter of switching around the meal packs.

I would like to look up that book you mentioned - I will try Amazon. Thanks for the info.

God bless,
SimoneM

My morning blood sugar went down to 136 after eating lighter at night ... so I think I am on the right track. I get plenty of exercise at night. Too much, as I have been having a bad fibro flare up for weeks. Pain really messes with body's chemistry, too.

~ SimoneM

I've also noticed that when I take my bed time reading I then eat a small protien - like meat and cheese - a small portion - and my fasting before breakfast #'s have come down since doing this.
Working nights? Yuck. God bless you...tried it once..couldn't switch the internal body clock. Keep me posted...I'm here to listen and try the book, it was so interesting...and then you wont need to spend the money on nutrisystem -lol!

I have been diagnosed just over a year. Having someone close to me die from diabetes I thought i'd be as diligent as they come. NOT! I was good for a few months and lost 20 lbs but my sugars stayed so low (under 100) That I thought I could "cheat" some because I could afford it. Now sugars are creeping up and I am still having a hard time "leaving off sugar". I didn't become chubby by NOT liking food. Food is my only "vice". It's not like you can go without food. You don't HAVE TO smoke, drink, do drugs etc but you do have to eat. And mood and stress affect hunger. And when a girl like her sweets it's awfully hard to be a diabetic. Sweets are just a part. Potatos, bread, not so lean meats all make it hard to lose weight and control sugar.
I understand how you feel even though I haven't had such a hard time as you. I don't need to put myself in that spot either. If I don't start now it will only get worse.

Last year when I was on Nutrisystem - the full plan - and detoxxed from real sugar products - I began to notice my fixation on sugar substitutes. Wow! I really did not fully see my sugar addiction. SUGAR is a drug. If you are insulin intolerant and maybe have been for years, your body is accustomed to feeding off a high level of sugars even though it is slowly killing you. It is just like any other addiction.

And, unfortunately, if you fall off the wagon once, it is really easy to fall off again. We really need COMMITTMENT to keep to our healthy diet and exercise program, because it IS the quality of our life we are talking about!

I do not have children, so I will not be a grandma; but the one thing I do want is to GROW OLD with my husband. I think we need a "why" in order to drum up the committment and discipline.

Is this fleeting pleasure, this piece of fudge or cake or mashed potatoes really worth the cost of growing old with your husband, or being a grandma or spending time with your family?

Okay, that is my motivational speech for the day - lol.

New to this, but need to say what has worked and what has not worked, so that you get helped..as well. Have had full blown type II for almost nine yrs, after giving birth to my third child. At first the pills worked, but i have brittle diabetes, which numbers are very high at fastings and can drop very low quickly. I have been an enigma to the doctors. Personally i would have rather not gotten it. I get several infections, a yr. But i have found that vitamin C helps the immune system immensely. I don't obsess about it as i used to, and have accepted the shots as part of life. If i want to live. I have one grandchild, and three children, and they depend on me to take the shots. I have tried seaweed capsules to lose weight, and they worked..to lose ten pounds, without excersize i can see numbers like 300 quickly. I also have fybromyalgia and some arthritis. My back was injured two bulging disks, and have incredible hip pain, to the point of using a cane to aid walking. (which in these flare ups, makes excersize hard). I have read that in Canada they have cured diabetic mice with capaicsin, which is an ingredient in hot chili peppers. BY injecting the substance into the pancreas. They are currently doing studys on humans. I also saw a doctor on TV last night, that stated there are creams being designed for epideral treatments that are promising for diabetics. These are great findings. My prayer is that the FDA will approve them. And in a timely fashion. (Ontario Post) is the paper i read about this in. (online). My biggest fear is dialysis, with this disease, since it seems so much more than, other things, to me. They have found protein in my urine, and i have been told that i am in the beginning stages of kidney failure. So i eliminated protein, and just eat mostly raw veggies, and salads, and fruit. I remain positive. Why quit now? You are welcome to email me anytime, if i can be of support. Drink lots and lots of water!~ very important

No need to feel ashamed. We all goof up now and again. Nobody is perfect. If we were, there wouldn't be diabetes or any illnesses. You know where things went wrong, so now you know where to statr fixing them. I'm here if you need to talk.

This disease stinks! We ALL hate it, and we ALL KNOW what we have to do. It gets us down, it makes us crazy, and we stumble and fall and take two steps back for every one step forward. I've been here for 15 years. Had some great years - lost 117 lbs and have kept it off for 7 years. And have had some bad year - like this year. I wasn't diligent, chose to eat wrong - gained 12 lbs and ended up in the ICU with near 400 sugars. So once again, I am the poster child for diabetes. Checking myself 4 times a day. Feeling the frustrations and joys of a high or low BGL.
Have found that a Low Glycemic Diet is helping me. I've lost 7 lbs and in 4 weeks have brought sugars down to 95-140. Better than 400! When I said in a previous post it was shameful - I meant that we KNOW what we need to do, and we ALLOW ourselves to slowly slip up. I hope I didn't come aross as saying you need to be ashamed! Not what I had intended!