dear, have you talked with your doctor, let him/her know how you are feeling, maybe you need help with your drepression? I have told you you could email me to talk.

You cannot allow this to control you, you must make the first step to taking control. Stand in front of a mirror, look at the girl looking back and you and tell her, you can do this, you will do this, you must do this and then begin with one thing and work on changing it.

If you make the effort to control and begin with baby steps, one day you could possibly get off insulin. I know of a couple who have done this, getting their diabetes in control and cutting out some meds. getting control can help the neuropathy, getting control could help with the kidneys

there is a saying, you cannot control people, places, or things, but you can control yourself

Hair loss ?
Big deal, I too am losing hair, wigs or tolerance from all is the answer....
There are also positive things, Rocket, and they are easy to find.
Weigh them against the negatives and have no conpuncture about using the finger on the positive side of the scale...no-one will tell...lol...
Numbers
Diet
Exercise/work
And read what Gayle has to say - it makes so much sense.

ROcket, as difficult as this stuff is, dying would be alot worse. Losing my hair makes me crazy too. I always had long full hair. Now I use hair spray to keep the hair in place to hide the holes in my hair. Wigs are next. But every time I look at my beautiful 5 year old grand child, I think how wonderful it is to be alive. My advise is find something you truly love, a hobby, a relative whose company you adore, a friend, and give thanks every day for the time you have with that hobby, that relative, that friend.